this is funny!

weesiang is full of crap!

siang <3>
suddenli i realise tat i ite tat time veri handsome
siang <3>
lol
ziqiChloé - oh yeah! halloweeeen!! . says:
hahhahhaa
ziqiChloé - oh yeah! halloweeeen!! . says:
INDEED I HAVE TO AGREE
ziqiChloé - oh yeah! halloweeeen!! . says:
what is happening to you now!!

yeah.. he is a hottie during our ITE days. but now?? hahahah.

hey the 500th post!!!

every time during our management meeting, boss will share some very "interesting" and super chim stories.. so on our last management meeting he shared, "Man proposes and God disposes." well basically it means... we plan and plan and plan but it will not be made possible if God did not give us good weather on that day. so god is the one that make this possible.. because all our programs are outdoor and i DID NOT prepare for any wet weather plan! so whenever people ask me what is the wet weather plan.. i will tell them " it will be a bright and sunny day on that day so no wet weather plan is necessary!!" muahahaha.. yes positive thinking! so thank you for giving us an awesome weather that day. thank you for making it possible for us!!

i pray and pray and pray really hard for a good weather on that day. and you made it possible for me!!! wooooo!! anyway im glad that it's finally over. i think it went well? like no major hiccup. hmm..

everything went according to what i planned although someone gave me a mini surprise in the morning.. but it's okay.. i will learn from it... now i know. and i will make sure that i wont make the same mistake again... (:

my two wonderful, awesome and fantastic emcee (melvyn and golden!) for the day. must really thank melvyn for agreeing to help me. everyone was saying that he did a fantastic job, he is really good blah blah.. after all he only had one practice with golden. he help to brighten up the whole atmosphere and help to lead golden along.. but got to admit he is really GOOD! if not why will i want to approach him right?? muahahaha. and i also feel super bad for constantly bugging him to help with the script. because of that im becoming more and more nagggy!! NOOOOOO!!

i still remember the first time when i met him it was during one YMCA event with BHID, and he was the emcee for that day too. was attracted to his nice voice because i heard him sang that day too. yeah he got a nice voice.. THANK YOU MELVYN YEE!!


performance by our awesome choir! still remember i teared when i saw them perform for the very first time. their never give up attitude. they continue to sing and despite their disabilities.. well that really touch me.. although it's not fantastic but it's enough to touch my heart. (: well done people!

the great BHID's work out!! thank you inday for coming up with this!

with victor.. one of the best part of my job.. getting to know wonderful people like them. :) thank you for sharing with me your "life experiences" haha.

with one group of my awesome volunteers!! they totally rocks the event lah!

and now it's over. feel a little bit empty though! hahaha.
and i think it's time to brainstorm for next year party... NOT!! (:

it's this coming saturday

after almost 2 months of intensive planning...
it's this saturday!!
OMG!
suddenly im feeling really nervous about it..
like FUCKING NERVOUS!!!! damn
initially i was still feeling okay... like normal..
but now i cant keep my cool!!!
am suddenly really worried about missing out this and that
details details and FUCKING MORE DETAILS!!!!
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

am worried that my planning for volunteers might screwed up
am worried that the weather might play me out
am worried that the games might screwed up
am worried that the turn out might not be that good
am worried that it might not be interesting enough to keep them occupied
am worried that my residents might misbehave
basically IM FUCKING WORRIED ABOUT EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ahh! bless me
I DONT WANT TO SCREW UP THIS IMPORTANT EVENT!!
AFTER ALL THIS IS THE FIRST FUCKING EVENT THAT I ORGANIZE..
AND EVERYONE WILL BE LOOKING AT HOW I HANDLE IT...

sometimes i am seriously tired of leading. will rather be the follower instead. ..

sweet gesture from a volunteer

received this from my boy who managed to successfully completed his session with us.
i'm glad that it manage to impact him a little? at least now know i know what i'm doing is right.. what i believe in is right.. and i should continue to stick to it. (:

9 days trip

it's confirmed! will be away from 27th nov to 5th dec! am going on a mission trip to myanmar!!

i always wanted to go on a mission trip. finally got a chance to go.. will be going to myanmar end of nov. i am really looking forward to this after all it is going to be my first mission trip! (i hope it's not the last as well! haha) hopefully i can tahan lah! time to grow up and be independent!! i am looking forward to gain new experiences and more insights to life from this trip.. yay..

exactly 1 year

** i'm going to make this a very long post.. after all it's a year reflection of things that happened at work.. so try to bear with me hahaha **

time flies.. yes.. it's exactly 1 year since i joined this big family.. still remember how sad i was when it's time to leave those wonderful people at faplccc.net.. anyway i'm glad that one year later.. we are still in contact with each other (not all but those that i am really close with..) .. after all they tolerated all my nonsenses, craps, craziness.. taught me things.. and yes i feel really comfortable when i am with them.. i can be 100% myself. glad that they didn't run away from me! haha (:

i still remember my first assignment when i joined them.. to confirm the RSVP lists for their 10th anniversary. and i seriously had a HARD time doing it. why? because it was actually my first time calling up strangers. and yes i nearly freak out while talking to them.. don't ask me why but somehow because of that i really dragggg going to work. after that, i learned that i really need to build up my confident.. like the tag line "fake it till you make it!" most importantly to get your information right before calling them.. and now one year later.. i am actually IN CHARGE of planning for their 11th anniversary.. well if given a choice, i will rather go back to calling RSVP list. it's a heavier burden this time round. and yet again... something that i am completely unfamiliar with... well. there is always a first time for everything right? just pray that i wont screwed up this event...

这一年过的好快！不知道是不是因为很忙时间就过得比较快？

well.. how much did i change for the past one year? i don't know. but somehow my colleagues are saying that i'm different.. i have changed.. what can i say? 人是会变的，总有一天要长大的。i came in as a loud joker.. always crappy and forever happy.. always smily.. but these days they are saying that i seems to be a little stress and sometimes serious with a tense up face.. haha. that's because more responsibilities are thrown to me everyday... it's hard to remain sane... i'm still trying to find a way to enjoy everything.. but one thing for sure the craziness and crappy-ness is still in me..

i enjoyed my journey with them for the past 1 year.. given a chance to do things that i never know im capable of.. meeting lots of interesting people.. managing those volunteers.. overcome my phobia of giving briefing.. although i still need to work hard on that but it's getting better. i hope! haha. and most importantly.. getting a chance to work with all my wonderful and lovely residents/ clients. yes.. im loving them more each day..

everyday when i stepped into the building, they will greet me with their bright and cheery smile.. the cute resident who open the gate for me will always show me a victory .V. sign whenever he sees me walking into the gate.. (yeah.. that's my trademark pose.. ahah) calling out to me "JIE JIE MORNING!!", 'shouting' my name when they see me walking past... and purposely calling me AUNTIE when i tell them not to.. haha some of them are really mischievous. it really warms my heart to see them greeting me by my name or calling me mei (sounds younger!) because it means that they are starting to recognise me.. starting to remember my face.. (:

during the past 1 year, i get to witness different type of amazing stories between my clients and their families.. and from them i learned how to appreciate my family more, learn how to love the people around me and be contented with the things i have now.. compared to them, we are really fortunate. they are always happy and cheery regardless of the condition that they are in..

to appreciate my family more...
i grow up in a family where things are always being done for me.. clothes being washed and ironed by my mum.. and yes my mum even pack my room for me! and it became a habit that i will just leave things there because i know mum will clean up for me! (yeah my confession) but through them, i learn to appreciate and understand everything that my mum is doing for us. making sure that our home is always clean, tidy and safe. so that when we are home, we can rest and do not have to worry about those household chores. i am trying to change myself to be less reliant on my parents.. it's time for me to take care of them and not them taking care of us. it's time for me to be worried about them and not them constantly worried about us. it's time for my brother and i to take charge of the family.

i appreciate the time spent together with my family. it's really sad that a lot of them yearn to spend time with their love one but they are unable to.. but i have the chance to do it so i must learn to cherish every moment spent with them and not regret in the future. although sometimes we are always busy with work school entertainment that we often ended up neglecting them.. so we should all make it a point to set aside some time to spend together as a family.. even if you they are far away from you, we should at least give them a call and let them know that you are safe. (:

to learn how to love the people around me...
even though they are mentally slower.. some of them are capable of loving.. showing care and concern for the other party. yes and i witnessed all that.. how a son show his love for his dad.. how a daughter yearn for his dad... how they show their siblings love, when someone bullied one of them, the rest will united to protect the other party. (this taught me to love my brother more.. and fight less with him.) through the interaction with them, they gave me a chance to learn how to take care of people, how to interact with people, (talking to them.. making them laugh as it will actually brighten up their dull day. everyday i will think of new ways to entertain them.. new ways to engage the residents.. because it's really heartwarming to see them smile..) we are blessed with abilities that they lack.. it's time for us to use our abilities to serve the less fortunate.. sometimes we need to to move out of our little world and give back to the society..

they thought me to be patient as well.. as talking and taking care of them is not easy. sometimes to get your point across to them you need to repeat, repeat and repeat.. thus it is very important for us to be really patient when we are dealing with them. i believe that even though they are mentally slower.. they can learn. we just need to be very patient towards them.. teach them slowly and one day they will remember and learn..

because of them.. i learn to be more tolerance towards the disabled.. now i am able to empathize better with them.. i guess the more you see the more you think.. ?!?

yes i definitely grow a lot during the past one year.. not only in size but in knowledge as well! haha. from a totally ignorant brat to what i am today.. they believe in me and gave me lots of opportunity to prove myself. i did alot of things that i dont even know that i am actually capable of doing that.. sometimes i am even amazed with myself for some of the things that i done.. haha.. like how i manage to 'fake' my way through so many presentations.. meetings... haha!!

ahh. anyway enough of my random thoughts.. to conclude..

they are just like my second family... (:

and now i look forward to another exciting year with them...

regards,
ziqi

let's forgive

when deep injury is done to us,
we never recover until we forgive..
forgiveness does not change the past,
but it does enlarge the future.
- mary karen read

my residents are really CUTE!!!

me: do you want to eat sweet?
resident: i want!! (and kept nodding his head)

** so i pass the sweet to him.. **

resident: shh.. don't tell jie jie (pointing to my colleague who came in with him) you give me sweet. it's our secret. shh..

muahahahaha!! they are seriously damn cute right!! oh man. they even know how to sort of "bribe" you in doing things for them, some even know how to bully people, etc.

oh ya... i realized that somehow unknowing-ly you will end up acting and behaving like them once you spend all your time with them. i received A LOT of comments saying that i should move in with them soon... i am behaving more and more like them.. are you okay? i should start arranging for my appointment at IMH.. etc

But sometimes in order to communicate with them.. you really need to go down to their level to communicate with them; only then are you able to click with them, able to get some response from them. it's true. if you come and act al mighty in front of them they will be thinking "who is this freak standing in front of me? what is she trying to do?" if you manage to go into the same channel with them.. at least you can get some responses from them... even those that don't talk at all at least when they get use to you and see you more often, they will smile to you.. really...

the most satisfying moment is.. when you manage to get a non responsive resident to smile at you when he/ she sees you coming.. that is the time when you know that they are starting to recognise you.. acknowledging your presence and the satisfaction you get is PRICELESS.. really..

you will never know that all this little things that you do to them.. (walking over to shake their hand, smile at them.. acknowledge them...) actually meant a lot to them.

(:

postcard from nederlands (:

this morning i received a post card all the way from nederlands. one ex volunteer mailed it over.. he is one volunteer that left a deep impression on me. very nice decent guy.. agreed to practically anything that i ask for! (not that i always ask things from him but he really help me alot in some programs..). show great empathy for my clients... showering them with care and love. treat them really well... respect them.. yeah.. that's how good is he... and he sort of set the standard for all my future volunteers! a very high standard though.. haha

it's really sweet of him to remember my clients even though he is far away.. (:

it's exactly one more to our 11th anniversary...

and this is the first time that i am actually planning for an event. a real event that involve lots of details. i'm overwhelmed by all these planning that i need to do, having to liaise with volunteers, sponsors, contractors... starting to turn cranky when people keep coming to me to bombard me with all the issuess and endless questions!!

but i'm glad that everyone is really supportive. giving me advice... trying their best to help me. i thank god for giving me wonderful colleagues! (:

i'm afraid that i will screw up the whole event. worried that i might miss out this and that. argh. beside that my other projects are ongoing as well. and worst first assignment is due soon. i'm sinking... sinking... HELP!! can anyone pull me out?

that's life

was suppose to go for home visit to one of my client yesterday. while confirming the visit again, we received the news that he passed away at night.

that's the first death that i encountered after working with them for almost one year. and it's not exactly a very nice experience though. and im sure im going to encounter more of it.. sigh...

title?

Somehow I believe that they can feel it and they understand what is happening even though they are not responsive at all. I believe that they know what is going on around them although they need times to take in all the information. They have feelings like us too…

When my colleague told me what happened that night I tear. Without fail, my client’s dad will visit him every day. Often I told him not to do that as he needs his rest as well especially after a long day at work. Beside that he needs to look after his wife too. So last night when my client saw his dad, he broke into tears and hugged his dad tight. And both of them ended up crying together. what a scene right. Not something you can see in a place like us. All of us were kind of shock when we heard of it. it’s really heartbreaking to see it. I know them personally and I can feel their love for each other even though my client is unable to express himself. Or rather, he is not aware of how to express himself. He is very attached to his dad. After all it’s his dad who brought him up, care for him and showers him with all his fatherly love.

I pray that his dad is healthy and strong, able to continue caring for his wife and son. I pray that his wife recover soon and I pray that my client will behave and not create any trouble for anyone. I pray that they will have more time to spend together as a family. (:

kids....

was at a primary schol for our weekly session on hydroponic lesson with the primary 4 kids and our residents.. and yes.. they are FULL OF ENERGY and really very NOISY. yakking non stop and asking endless questions!

so i decided to play a game with them... (got this idea from UP. if you remember how the old man tried to make that boy shut up! hahah. yes i know i'm evil...)

me: ok children, i'm going to play a game with you. did you guys watch UP?
children: YES!!!!! (screaming at the top of their voices)
me: ok! let's play who can keep quiet for the longest time! the winner will get a prize!!

anyway it only last for like 5 secs? and they started bombarding me with all sort of questions again!! screaming and shouting, singing at the top of their voices... etc.

children: but miss chloé my mouth can't stop moving!!

and they go on and on....

mermaid.

went with my colleagues to sentosa for our staff gathering few weeks ago. we went to underwater world. ages since i last went there. it's interesting how everything seems so fun when you are young and how different it feels when you grow up. hmm..

anyway, while we were at underwater world, my colleague told us that he saw the "mermaid" when he came last week. i got really excited as i was thinking to myself "wah mermaid really exist!! i want to see!!" wondering how it look like and how they manage to bring the whole mermaid in. isit pretty like little mermaid?

so when my colleague pointed to me the "mermaid" i quickly rush over to see.. and guess the mermaid i had in mind is different from the mermaid that he is telling me about!!

ok.. that's the mermaid that i saw at underwater world. it's "gracie the dugong" apparently it is also known as the "mermaid" to some. (is that a BIG FISH?)


and this is the mermaid that i am thinking about!!! gosh felt so silly after that.



so conclusion.. mermaid do not exist. wakeup.

i just made a very crazy decision

im going to KL this weekend with mao sheng. leaving on Saturday evening!
i love impromptu trip like this. he is going over to look at some diving equipment and i decided to tag along!

i am so going to look forward to this. but definitely going to control my spending as i'm broke. only going to spend on food. no more buying of clothes. enough is enough. anyway i foresee that the style is not what i will normally go for. maybe i will just get some shoes? haha.

but before that.. let's hope that this week will past fast!
oh man. it's Monday again..

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organ donor card

finally receive my organ donor card yesterday after sending it weeks ago. still remember when i first told my parents about my decision, their first reaction "SIAO (crazy) ARH?" and they tried to talk me out from doing it. one example of how my mum tried to talk me out of it.. as we chinese believe in reincarnation my mum told me that if you give others your organs after you die, in your next life you will be born without that organ that you donated!! yeah that's my mum for you... hahaha

but still being the very stubborn me.. i went ahead with it. :)

if they are people who need it take it. since it will become useless to me once i die. right? there are people dying while waiting for a suitable donor. if we can donate our organ to them and give them a chance to re live their life.. why not?

random chat with one resident

this morning, i walked over to my favourite resident when he is playing lego.

me: hello. what are you doing?
resident: i'm building a home
me: wow. who are you building it for?
resident: build for you lo. then we can stay together!

awww. sweeet!!
im seriously in love with everyone of them!! :)

gone for 3 days and back

everything is seriously very cheap over there.
bought 15 dresses, 4 shoes, 4 bags in just 1 day. crazy right?
and yes. i overspent (again). but anyway it was still within what i budget.

anyway.. overall damage done

almost 30 dresses, 5 shoes, 4 bags and lots of doraemon! hahaha

awesome trip, but hate it when mum nag at me NON STOP complaining that i bought too much crap back and the amount of clothes that she is going to wash. sheesh.

ahhh

good news, finally we managed to confirm the venue after sourcing around and procastinating for a long time. this year we will be holding our 11th anniversary at macRitchie reservoir park. at least now we got the venue confirmed, it should be easier to plan the rest of the details right? hmm..

anyway. i was actually quite excited about it. after all this is the first time i am going to plan an event and after going through the event management course... I AM EVEN MORE EXCITED TO START (ya right..) but boss called me to his room earlier and he bombarded us with alot of things!! JUST RIGHT BEFORE I'M GOING FOR MY HOLIDAY.. and right now i feel like my brain is going to explode. trying to digest all those information that he gave earlier.. and he told me to THINK IT OVER MY TRIP and HOPE I WILL ENJOY MY HOLIDAY... nice try.

crap. im suddenly really nervous about the whole thing. feel like running away. realise that it's full of details details and more details!!! AHHHH!!! HELP ME!!

and finally im leaving for BKK tomorrow!!! woooo been waiting for this trip since zillion years ago.. and it's finally TOMORROW!! as usual not in the mood to work right now. spend my whole morning at IMH and just got back to office. damn tired. and boss just love to bombard me with all sort of things always at the wrong timing. and my RI boys are coming later. they are definitely going to drain away all my remaining energy.. headache! argh!

anyhow bangkok here i come! (: