with random people im shy, with my friends i'm crazy!!

someone created a fan page for "with random people im shy, with my friends i'm crazy!!" on facebook

and yes i of course i request to be a fan for that laaah!! haha.. this is so true. often i find it hard to open up to people that i dont know and feel uncomfortable hanging out with them. feel weird without my usual crazy khakis around to go crazy with me. and sometimes i really sian when i happen to bump into random people that i know at work. cause i will need to start a conversation with him/ her!! and i always worried about "what if we got nothing to say?" "what if what i say sounds stupid to him/ her?"

there are times when i started to panic and think of what should i do to avoid that awkwardness! and it's tiring to keep thinking about what to say but my job requires me to be really 'bubbly' and open as i'm always meeting volunteers and it's my job to 'entertain' them when there are here. it's really tiring...

if i dont talk much to you on the first time or remain very quiet or ACT very cool.. is not i dao or what. just that im not ready to open up to you yet!! but when i start to do crazy stuff and talk nonsense with you... i think that's the time when im slowly turning into HUMAN!! hahahah aiyaaa i really find it hard to be myself when im with random people. after all not everyone can accept my way right?

anyway.. it's a meaningless entry.. just ranting as usual..

5 days in phuket

i love impromptu trip like this. bee told me that they are thinking of going to phuket for a few days and ask if im interested.. of course on laah! i totally heart beach holiday. need some sun sea and sand badly. the last beach holiday i went was in april 2009 with the ecu peeps. so just nice for another one.. and i swear i must make it to maldives before i die!! been hearing lotsa stories about that place.. hopefully my future husband will bring me there as a honeymooon trip yeah! hahaha.

and i shall term this trip as "beginning of the year encouragement trip!" haha.

lion, bobo, bee and bong's little adventure in phuket..

we spent 5 days in phuket and everyday we got con by people. they just love to jack up the prices when they know that you are tourist.. one typical example that happened when we are out shopping (thanks to the dj bee for typing this out! she is the best story teller around!! really LOL non stop when i read it.)

shopkeeper: "did piece (plain singlet), i gib you 500 baht. very cheap oredi mam"
zk: no, sorry too expensive.
-walk away-
shopkeeper: "okok, how much you want mam?"
zk: 150 baht... See More
shopkeeper: " cannot mam, best pry i gib you 350 baht"
zk: sorry it's ok then.
-walks away further-
shopkeeper: "okok, best pry 300 baht. very cheap mam"
zk: sorry it's ok
shopkeeper" how much you want mam?"
zk: 150 baht
shopkeeper: "really cannot mam. pris, today me no business i gib you good pry oredi. okok final pry 250 baht."
zk: no thanks
-walks away for good-
shopkeeper: ok lah ok lah, 150 baht for you mam.
*ting ting ting* bingo!

you see? from 500 baht to 150 baht!! seriously wtf! initially i was really shy to bargain with them.. i still feel abit pai seh to lower the price.. but after being con a few times.. i decided to hack care.. and i learnt that the 'walk away' tactic alway works!! hahaha.

anyway.. back to happier and much exciting things...

i tried para sailing!!! omg! my first time!! it's really expensive but worth it lah. 1000 baht ($40) for a few minutes in the sky. i was kind of apprehensive at first... worried that i might just fall from the sky.. what if the strings decided to break because im too heavy.. etc. etc.. the take off was scary though.. but the view up there was amazing.. and i really feels like you are flying! flying like a bird! hahaa. and will i do it again? hmm... not in phuket but some other nicer beaches like maldives? hahaha. only thing is i hope i can have a longer time up there..

preparing to take offff.... weeeeee!! and i must salute the guy behind me that took me on this amazing experience.. if you notice he is not wearing any safety vest not even a life jacket.. and throughout the whole journey he is just clinging on to the strings behind me and holding on to me. they are not even worried about falling down. imagine you holding on to a string only, flying through the ocean and you need to make sure that you had a safe landing.... can you do that? so it's money well spent.. he fucking risk his life to take you for an once in a life time experience eh.

during the trip, we went to phi phi island as well. on the way there the transport that supposed to fetch us there broke down. sibei heng leh we all! hahaha tyre punctured


it's a very beautiful place. clear water! was so excited when i went there. and i finally tried snorkeling!! the hotel guy bought some breads for us and told us to bring it along with us and feed the fishes!! my first time swimming with the fishes.. whenever you throw a bread they will all swam towards you. nice.

camwhoring at maya beach

re reading the undomestic goddess. my companion for the 5 days. and reading this book reminds me that sometimes we need to slow down and take a look at the things, people around us. to find yourself.. to fall in love.. to LIVE. you only live once. so live your life to the fullest!! life is too precious to be waste. dont spent all your time working and ended up neglecting the people around you and forgetting how to enjoy life.. we need to work but when it's time to rest.. REST.

and happiness is time spent lazing on the beach, tanning, reading a nice book and relaxing.. if only i can do this everyday... her books never fail to make me smile to myself while reading.. all time favourite author!

we came and left. 5 days spent together doing silly stuffs and not having to worry about work and other random nonsenses.



and now it's time to leave and snap back to reality.. back to work and back to the stressful life in singapore. time to work hard at work. i know that this year is going to be a year filled with lots of projects and random nonsenses for me. more and more demands from boss. HANG ON ZIQI! YOU CAN DO IT!! (:

all things come to an end.. but we can always plan for more trips right? like what lionel says when we are back in singapore "it's time to plan for the next trip!!" hahaha.

Fallin’ For You (:

I don’t know but
I think I maybe
Fallin’ for you
Dropping so quickly
Maybe I should
Keep this to myself
Waiting ’til I
Know you better

I am trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I’m scared of what you’ll say
So I’m hiding what I’m feeling
But I’m tired of
Holding this inside my head

I’ve been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’ve been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’m fallin’ for you

As I’m standing here
And you hold my hand
Pull me towards you
And we start to dance
All around us
I see nobody
Here in silence
It’s just you and me

I’m trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I’m scared of what you’ll say
So I’m hiding what I’m feeling
But I’m tired of
Holding this inside my head

I’ve been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’ve been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’m fallin’ for you

Oh I just can’t take it
My heart is racing
The emotions keep spinning out

I’ve been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’ve been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’m fallin’ for you

I can’t stop thinking about it
I want you all around me
And now I just can’t hide it
I think I’m fallin’ for you (x2)

I’m fallin’ for you

Ooohhh
Oh no no
Oooooohhh
Oh I’m fallin’ for you

my first new year resolution! hahah

Joseph says:
Happy New Year
what's ur new year resolution? irritate more elderly people?

Chloe.Ziqi- says:
hey happy new year!
my new year resolution to make joseph make more donation to bishan home!!
hahahah

Joseph says:
LOl!!!

Chloe.Ziqi- says:
so are you going to make my new year resolution COME TRUE??

Joseph says:
u r irritating as usual

the last day of 2009

it was supposed to be a joyous occasion as we welcome a brand new year but i received a pretty bad news in the morning that might just affect me for the rest of my life. yes that's how serious it is. although nothing is confirm yet.. but i just pray for the best. pray for me too. dont worry it's not life threatening. and the doctor say "at least it's not cancer." but fuck at that moment i was thinking "I WOULD RATHER IT BE CANCER than being alive and aware to suffer this. i'm not that strong seriously. although i hope i am." i'm a faker.. there is no cure for this! anyway like what my colleague say "you don't have to use skin whitening product anymore!!" oh seriously FUCK OFF! and yes i told him that straight away. well at least i will still be alive and around to irritate you. it is not exactly a good start to 2010 but i am determined to make it right. although i am totally clueless how to go about doing it. right. enough about my emo-ing.

it's a mini tradition for me to recap on the things that i achieved in the past years. so yes i am going to do that for 2009 as well. (:

looking through my past entries i realised that it is really an eventful year for me. although some activities are not being recorded.. and yes i definitely GROW alot.. in terms of knowledge and skills... experiences alot and learnt alot.

and one of the best acheivement... i finally completed my studies!!! like after suffering for 3 years.. i'm finally free now. i'm so used to my busy life that i feel a sense of lost when i became less busy. now everyday was spent going out, shopping and hanging out with friends. not productive at all and i need to change that. on days when i get home earlier.. i have no idea what to do and ended up sleeping the whole night away. time to cultivate a hobby or learn a new skill or maybe even volunteer? always wanted to try volunteering at a hospice.. maybe i should start doing that too.

now at work... if you have been following my blog closely.. you should know how nervous i was for my workplace's 11th anniversary. my lovely boss put me in charge of the whole event when i'm still very new to the company.. lots of details to take note of and i'm someone that is not good with details at all. but i'm glad to have really supportive colleagues to help me through this and gave me advise and support me throughout the whole event. i'm glad that it went well and i must also thank my dearest guan yin and god for the awesome weather on that day. without the good weather.. no matter how well i plan it.. it will still not go through. my colleauge told me once you are in you .. YOU ARE IN. so i guess for 12th anniversary i need to start planning early unless something major happen to me if not im sure the arrow will still be shoooot over at my side. through this, i learnt the importance of team work and detailed planning. i cant possiblely achieved all these alone right?


as i spent more time with my residents at work.. i'm loving each and everyone of them more and more each day. their smiles and actions never fail to brighten up my boring day at work. i love how they greet me whenever they see me coming with their bright and cheery smile. it's indeed heartwarming to know that they are all starting to recognise you and accepting you. (:

i finally went on my first mission trip to myanmar (will blog about that soon). it was indeed an eye opener as i got to experience the simplicity of life... i went to give but ended up receiving even more from them. they taught me how to appreciate life as it is and be thankful for everything that i have now. through my interaction with them, i get to learnt about "the joy of giving" and they taught me how to stay happy no matter how bad the condition is. i'm definitely going for more mission trips in 2010 (hopefully if time permits). i really want to do more for them but i have my limitations too. sigh.


to all my buddies... thank you for staying on with me.. always being there for me when i need you. you know who you are :) i am looking forward to walk more years together with everyone of you. you did made a difference in my life. thank you for being part of me. :) i pray that 2010 will be a year filled with good news and happy memories for all of you. dont ever give up once you set your mind to something... be strong to fight away all obstacles to achieve what you want. and i know all these obstacles will only make you STRONGER AND BETTER. i will be here with you if you need me. and guess what? i can see you 2 years down the road wearing your graduation gown and throwing your mortar board high up into the sky!! yipee!! so no matter how hard it is now.. HANG ON!! and im sure you can do it and pick yourself up again. because you are not one who will give up easily right!! JIA YOOOU!!!

well.. it is not exactly a good start to 2010 but i believe that it will get better. there is alot of things that i have yet to do and yet to experience like falling madly deeply in love? hahaha. i pray that i will be strong enough to walk through this journey.

happy new year ziqi.
everything will be fine.
you will be okay!
be strong and smile. (:

signing off..

hello 2010

few more days and i'm going to bid goodbye to 2009; a year filled with changes, changes and more changes. i'm glad that i manage to go through all and never give up. great job ziqi! (:

and now i am really looking forward to the arrival of 2010....

because i know that it is definitely going to be an awesome year for me and my loves one filled with endless happy news and happy memories for all of us. (:

signing off
chloe lee :)

a typical conversation in a restaurant

client: Hi, can i check with you is this drink hot or cold? sweet or sour?
waiter: how would i know what it taste like when i never even taste it before?
client: OMG!!

hahahaha. really burst out laughing when my accountant shared with me what she experienced when she went to china for holiday...