this is funny!

weesiang is full of crap!

siang <3>
suddenli i realise tat i ite tat time veri handsome
siang <3>
lol
ziqiChloé - oh yeah! halloweeeen!! . says:
hahhahhaa
ziqiChloé - oh yeah! halloweeeen!! . says:
INDEED I HAVE TO AGREE
ziqiChloé - oh yeah! halloweeeen!! . says:
what is happening to you now!!

yeah.. he is a hottie during our ITE days. but now?? hahahah.

hey the 500th post!!!

every time during our management meeting, boss will share some very "interesting" and super chim stories.. so on our last management meeting he shared, "Man proposes and God disposes." well basically it means... we plan and plan and plan but it will not be made possible if God did not give us good weather on that day. so god is the one that make this possible.. because all our programs are outdoor and i DID NOT prepare for any wet weather plan! so whenever people ask me what is the wet weather plan.. i will tell them " it will be a bright and sunny day on that day so no wet weather plan is necessary!!" muahahaha.. yes positive thinking! so thank you for giving us an awesome weather that day. thank you for making it possible for us!!

i pray and pray and pray really hard for a good weather on that day. and you made it possible for me!!! wooooo!! anyway im glad that it's finally over. i think it went well? like no major hiccup. hmm..

everything went according to what i planned although someone gave me a mini surprise in the morning.. but it's okay.. i will learn from it... now i know. and i will make sure that i wont make the same mistake again... (:

my two wonderful, awesome and fantastic emcee (melvyn and golden!) for the day. must really thank melvyn for agreeing to help me. everyone was saying that he did a fantastic job, he is really good blah blah.. after all he only had one practice with golden. he help to brighten up the whole atmosphere and help to lead golden along.. but got to admit he is really GOOD! if not why will i want to approach him right?? muahahaha. and i also feel super bad for constantly bugging him to help with the script. because of that im becoming more and more nagggy!! NOOOOOO!!

i still remember the first time when i met him it was during one YMCA event with BHID, and he was the emcee for that day too. was attracted to his nice voice because i heard him sang that day too. yeah he got a nice voice.. THANK YOU MELVYN YEE!!


performance by our awesome choir! still remember i teared when i saw them perform for the very first time. their never give up attitude. they continue to sing and despite their disabilities.. well that really touch me.. although it's not fantastic but it's enough to touch my heart. (: well done people!

the great BHID's work out!! thank you inday for coming up with this!

with victor.. one of the best part of my job.. getting to know wonderful people like them. :) thank you for sharing with me your "life experiences" haha.

with one group of my awesome volunteers!! they totally rocks the event lah!

and now it's over. feel a little bit empty though! hahaha.
and i think it's time to brainstorm for next year party... NOT!! (:

it's this coming saturday

after almost 2 months of intensive planning...
it's this saturday!!
OMG!
suddenly im feeling really nervous about it..
like FUCKING NERVOUS!!!! damn
initially i was still feeling okay... like normal..
but now i cant keep my cool!!!
am suddenly really worried about missing out this and that
details details and FUCKING MORE DETAILS!!!!
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

am worried that my planning for volunteers might screwed up
am worried that the weather might play me out
am worried that the games might screwed up
am worried that the turn out might not be that good
am worried that it might not be interesting enough to keep them occupied
am worried that my residents might misbehave
basically IM FUCKING WORRIED ABOUT EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ahh! bless me
I DONT WANT TO SCREW UP THIS IMPORTANT EVENT!!
AFTER ALL THIS IS THE FIRST FUCKING EVENT THAT I ORGANIZE..
AND EVERYONE WILL BE LOOKING AT HOW I HANDLE IT...

sometimes i am seriously tired of leading. will rather be the follower instead. ..

sweet gesture from a volunteer

received this from my boy who managed to successfully completed his session with us.
i'm glad that it manage to impact him a little? at least now know i know what i'm doing is right.. what i believe in is right.. and i should continue to stick to it. (:

9 days trip

it's confirmed! will be away from 27th nov to 5th dec! am going on a mission trip to myanmar!!

i always wanted to go on a mission trip. finally got a chance to go.. will be going to myanmar end of nov. i am really looking forward to this after all it is going to be my first mission trip! (i hope it's not the last as well! haha) hopefully i can tahan lah! time to grow up and be independent!! i am looking forward to gain new experiences and more insights to life from this trip.. yay..

exactly 1 year

** i'm going to make this a very long post.. after all it's a year reflection of things that happened at work.. so try to bear with me hahaha **

time flies.. yes.. it's exactly 1 year since i joined this big family.. still remember how sad i was when it's time to leave those wonderful people at faplccc.net.. anyway i'm glad that one year later.. we are still in contact with each other (not all but those that i am really close with..) .. after all they tolerated all my nonsenses, craps, craziness.. taught me things.. and yes i feel really comfortable when i am with them.. i can be 100% myself. glad that they didn't run away from me! haha (:

i still remember my first assignment when i joined them.. to confirm the RSVP lists for their 10th anniversary. and i seriously had a HARD time doing it. why? because it was actually my first time calling up strangers. and yes i nearly freak out while talking to them.. don't ask me why but somehow because of that i really dragggg going to work. after that, i learned that i really need to build up my confident.. like the tag line "fake it till you make it!" most importantly to get your information right before calling them.. and now one year later.. i am actually IN CHARGE of planning for their 11th anniversary.. well if given a choice, i will rather go back to calling RSVP list. it's a heavier burden this time round. and yet again... something that i am completely unfamiliar with... well. there is always a first time for everything right? just pray that i wont screwed up this event...

这一年过的好快！不知道是不是因为很忙时间就过得比较快？

well.. how much did i change for the past one year? i don't know. but somehow my colleagues are saying that i'm different.. i have changed.. what can i say? 人是会变的，总有一天要长大的。i came in as a loud joker.. always crappy and forever happy.. always smily.. but these days they are saying that i seems to be a little stress and sometimes serious with a tense up face.. haha. that's because more responsibilities are thrown to me everyday... it's hard to remain sane... i'm still trying to find a way to enjoy everything.. but one thing for sure the craziness and crappy-ness is still in me..

i enjoyed my journey with them for the past 1 year.. given a chance to do things that i never know im capable of.. meeting lots of interesting people.. managing those volunteers.. overcome my phobia of giving briefing.. although i still need to work hard on that but it's getting better. i hope! haha. and most importantly.. getting a chance to work with all my wonderful and lovely residents/ clients. yes.. im loving them more each day..

everyday when i stepped into the building, they will greet me with their bright and cheery smile.. the cute resident who open the gate for me will always show me a victory .V. sign whenever he sees me walking into the gate.. (yeah.. that's my trademark pose.. ahah) calling out to me "JIE JIE MORNING!!", 'shouting' my name when they see me walking past... and purposely calling me AUNTIE when i tell them not to.. haha some of them are really mischievous. it really warms my heart to see them greeting me by my name or calling me mei (sounds younger!) because it means that they are starting to recognise me.. starting to remember my face.. (:

during the past 1 year, i get to witness different type of amazing stories between my clients and their families.. and from them i learned how to appreciate my family more, learn how to love the people around me and be contented with the things i have now.. compared to them, we are really fortunate. they are always happy and cheery regardless of the condition that they are in..

to appreciate my family more...
i grow up in a family where things are always being done for me.. clothes being washed and ironed by my mum.. and yes my mum even pack my room for me! and it became a habit that i will just leave things there because i know mum will clean up for me! (yeah my confession) but through them, i learn to appreciate and understand everything that my mum is doing for us. making sure that our home is always clean, tidy and safe. so that when we are home, we can rest and do not have to worry about those household chores. i am trying to change myself to be less reliant on my parents.. it's time for me to take care of them and not them taking care of us. it's time for me to be worried about them and not them constantly worried about us. it's time for my brother and i to take charge of the family.

i appreciate the time spent together with my family. it's really sad that a lot of them yearn to spend time with their love one but they are unable to.. but i have the chance to do it so i must learn to cherish every moment spent with them and not regret in the future. although sometimes we are always busy with work school entertainment that we often ended up neglecting them.. so we should all make it a point to set aside some time to spend together as a family.. even if you they are far away from you, we should at least give them a call and let them know that you are safe. (:

to learn how to love the people around me...
even though they are mentally slower.. some of them are capable of loving.. showing care and concern for the other party. yes and i witnessed all that.. how a son show his love for his dad.. how a daughter yearn for his dad... how they show their siblings love, when someone bullied one of them, the rest will united to protect the other party. (this taught me to love my brother more.. and fight less with him.) through the interaction with them, they gave me a chance to learn how to take care of people, how to interact with people, (talking to them.. making them laugh as it will actually brighten up their dull day. everyday i will think of new ways to entertain them.. new ways to engage the residents.. because it's really heartwarming to see them smile..) we are blessed with abilities that they lack.. it's time for us to use our abilities to serve the less fortunate.. sometimes we need to to move out of our little world and give back to the society..

they thought me to be patient as well.. as talking and taking care of them is not easy. sometimes to get your point across to them you need to repeat, repeat and repeat.. thus it is very important for us to be really patient when we are dealing with them. i believe that even though they are mentally slower.. they can learn. we just need to be very patient towards them.. teach them slowly and one day they will remember and learn..

because of them.. i learn to be more tolerance towards the disabled.. now i am able to empathize better with them.. i guess the more you see the more you think.. ?!?

yes i definitely grow a lot during the past one year.. not only in size but in knowledge as well! haha. from a totally ignorant brat to what i am today.. they believe in me and gave me lots of opportunity to prove myself. i did alot of things that i dont even know that i am actually capable of doing that.. sometimes i am even amazed with myself for some of the things that i done.. haha.. like how i manage to 'fake' my way through so many presentations.. meetings... haha!!

ahh. anyway enough of my random thoughts.. to conclude..

they are just like my second family... (:

and now i look forward to another exciting year with them...

regards,
ziqi

let's forgive

when deep injury is done to us,
we never recover until we forgive..
forgiveness does not change the past,
but it does enlarge the future.
- mary karen read