nice..

Reminiscence

feeling nostalgic, i looked through all my stuff last night.. and it brought back alot of beautiful and sweet memories. :)

i found a box filled with lots of letters... in the past when there are no emails, sms, msn, icq, irc.. we connected through letters.. yes literally sending letters by mail.. and we wrote "thank you mr postman" on the envelope to thank the postman. and now when i read through those letters again i feel so weird. hahaa.

i still remember.. years ago.. when i was in primary school, i had this classmate from hong kong. when she went back to hong kong, we continue to keep in contact though mails... but somehow we lost contact :( i guess i was too lazy at that time to remain in contact with her. few years back.. i tried sending another letter to her but it got bounce back instead. guess she's no longer staying there.. aww.. if only i have the chance to meet up with her again.... i regret not keeping my promise to mail her often... and now i wonder how is she...

i love to pen down my thoughts. so that i can read through and laugh at it when i grow old.. thus i own a diary. even now with a blog i still write in a diary sometimes.. though not very often. i still prefer writing it down instead. after all it's more personal.. and nobody is going to judge you for whatever things you wrote in there..

my diaries and autograph book!

i have the habit of washing out all the photos that i took. keeping track of all the memories that i had... and place them all nicely into my album. (a reminder for me to arrange the few hundreds photos that i washed out and yet put it in the album!!)

whenever i my friends question why do i need to wash out all the photos since i can stored it in CD, SD card, thumbdrive, hard disk, etc... basically because im worried i cant keep them with me forever. all these gadgets will definitely spoilt one day... i still prefer the good old way of washing out every single photos and putting it in a album. so next time i can share it with my children, grandchildren, great grand children.. show them all the fun i had and tell them all my stories. like what my grandma did.. hehe.

some of the photo album which i did.. (oh man i look like crap!)

to china...

used to be a trend to keep this card in your wallet! hahaa

that pretty sum up some of my childhood memories.. it's definitely way different than kids these days...

and now down with fever.
virus everywhere!
zzz

random msn chat..

ST - 毁灭是创造的开始 says:
thanks man... and cute ah ma there (refering to my display picture)
ziqi- ٩(͡๏̯͡๏)۶ ٩(-̮̮̃-̃)۶ yes Chloé!! hoho says:
Because cute ah ma come out cute GRANDDAUGHTER and thats me!!

muahahaha. this is so true!

im having fun with this link!!

try try..

www.mytwinhauntsme.com

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sore throat! argh..
i hate sore throat!

blessing

sometimes you need some assurances and affirmations from people around you to keep you going.

it's truly my blessing to know friends like them.

To: you know who you are :)

i sincerely thank both of you for listening and all the kind words that you said.. the assurances and affirminations that you gave me. to be honest with you, i teared. but thank god the sky was dark so you guys didnt notice it. it indeed cheer me up alot. i'm feel blessed to have you here with me. thank you.

hang on..

1 more wiki assignment due on monday,
1 discussion in class on monday
and finally last essay for one module due on wednesday
= I'M GOING TO BE FREEEEE SOOOON!! WOOHOOO

free of SIGMEUD FREUD AND HIS THEORIES!!! LALALALA

but crap.. i just checked out the module for next sem.. guess what??

Humanistic Models of Counselling!!

more theories again!!! arhhhh!

i really heave a sign of relief after completing that 2500 words report on psychoanalysis of michael jackson. i wrote crap in it because it's really hard. all those crazy theories and tons of research to be done!! AHHH!! anyway im really glad that it's finally over.. just wish for a pass. please!!
i cant afford to fail any module. sigh.. so please be kind to me yeah? :)

waiting for april to arriveee!! woohoooo..

i forsee april going to be a busy month for me.. because SW is leaving and lots of things to be hand over to me.. and im ALONE!! sian lah! and my boss is really very funny! hahaha

but wait.. there is still something for me to loook forward to...
BINTAN!! BINTAN BINTAN!! SCB ARE YOU READY TO CONQUER BINTAN?? muahahaha
and promise my dearest vivian to club with her after everything's over. =D cant wait to see her lah! must plan one dinner date with her sooooon!

signing off.
good night
missyou.

new admission today for residential care

during the admission SW (social worker) spoke to me..

SW - How is he (refering to our new client) feeling now? Do you think he is happy?
me - Will you be happy if you are sent here?
SW - No..

found this photo and

realised that i havent collected my 'overdue' present from my beloved wenn! hahaha. oh man... must be at your house collecting dust right!!

made up my mind

3rd day and counting... :~)
hang on babe.

it's hard not to think especially when the brain idles but i'll try.

tsk tsk tsk

this morning while waiting for the train i eavesdrop on one girl (those typical twit) converstion with her boyfriend on the phone. through out the whole conversation she was scolding him in vulgarities! like : you this $%^& only know how to depend on your mother you $%^& and another example "do you want to talk about %^&* why are you so quiet? $%^&* dont waste my phone bill okay @#$%^"

oh my god kids these days...
terrible + horrible = incorrigible.

tsk tsk tsk..

to the love of my life...

to my dearest Freud, i would like to dedicate this post to you. (:

Dear freudie <3 (pss.. can i call you that? my pet name for you! heh *blush*),

no words can explain how much i love you. i love how you came up with so many nonsense oops i meant logical theories to explain our behavior. all these talks about a child psychosexual behaviors, our conscious and unconsious mind and not forgetting your favourite sexual PHANTASY! woohoooo... fantasy is already good enough but a talented man like you insisted to come up with something even better to drive us crazy. oh man... how wonderful to have you around? to think that a child dream of having a sexual relationship with their parents. hmm.. only such a weird or rather interesting man like you can came up with something that wonderful..

oh man.. i am so in love with you and indeed you drive me crazy with all your endless theories. how i am struggling to understand your theories and apply it to my report!! thank you for all these wonder things that you gave me. (: i know that i am definitely going to dream of you tonight my love.

do miss me

<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3

xoxo
your love

vivian is love :)

glad that i finally pour everything out to you.
the long chat inside amk station.
after struggling for so soo long.
let me see.. exactly seven months ! my god.
and how i manage to hide it from you for seven months!! haha
and how you manage to "guess" it as well! heh
it feels really good after i told you everything
and what makes it even better is
you totally understand what im going through.
how excited i feel when i told you everything
because you UNDERSTAND!!
how i manage to see a clearer picture from you.
i know what i should do
we both know its hard but i will try my best.
thank you for listening to my long winded stories
really appreciate it. love you girl!!

melt...

i always melt when i look at someone playing the piano. specially a guy who can play piano.. is really charming! my god... and i really love the sound of piano.. oh man.. melt lah! i guess i will fall in love with a guy while he is playing piano.. haha.

and its also one of my greatest regret.. wasted alot of money on learning to play piano but because of my laziness to practice.. i never succeed. sigh..

-.-

stop bugging me about your new home oli!!

oLiVeR says:
go on..admit it..u like my home
oLiVeR says:
not just the rubbish chute
oLiVeR says:
but everything in it
oLiVeR says:
me included

i still think that the nicest thing in your house is your RUBBISH CHUTE and the nicest room is ...

YOUR STORE ROOOOOM!!!

MUAHAHAHAA

CRAMP
FOR THE WHOLE FUCKING DAY!! argh
@#$%^&*(#$%^&

this is the first time i experience this. damn. I DONT FEEL ANYTHING AT ALL IN THE PAST!!
fuck why is it that it hurts so much now!! AHHHHH!!
sometime it really sucks to be a woman yeah?
hopefully it will be better tomorrow. sigh.



and good night you! :)

wtf? i smoke? kidding..

audaz spaz ~ Fortune doesn't always favour the Brave.. says:
u smoker rite?
ziqi- ٩(͡๏̯͡๏)۶ ٩(-̮̮̃-̃)۶ yes Chloé!! hoho says:
no
ziqi- ٩(͡๏̯͡๏)۶ ٩(-̮̮̃-̃)۶ yes Chloé!! hoho says:
lol
ziqi- ٩(͡๏̯͡๏)۶ ٩(-̮̮̃-̃)۶ yes Chloé!! hoho says:
do i look like a smoker???
audaz spaz ~ Fortune doesn't always favour the Brave.. says:
yup
audaz spaz ~ Fortune doesn't always favour the Brave.. says:
knn..
ziqi- ٩(͡๏̯͡๏)۶ ٩(-̮̮̃-̃)۶ yes Chloé!! hoho says:
no1!!!!
audaz spaz ~ Fortune doesn't always favour the Brave.. says:
last time sec sch u smoke
ziqi- ٩(͡๏̯͡๏)۶ ٩(-̮̮̃-̃)۶ yes Chloé!! hoho says:
I DIDNT SMOKE AT ALLL!!!
audaz spaz ~ Fortune doesn't always favour the Brave.. says:
yahayayaya
audaz spaz ~ Fortune doesn't always favour the Brave.. says:
with adi
ziqi- ٩(͡๏̯͡๏)۶ ٩(-̮̮̃-̃)۶ yes Chloé!! hoho says:
IM A GOOOOD GIRL!!!
ziqi- ٩(͡๏̯͡๏)۶ ٩(-̮̮̃-̃)۶ yes Chloé!! hoho says:
WAH SUDDENLY U MENTION ADI
ziqi- ٩(͡๏̯͡๏)۶ ٩(-̮̮̃-̃)۶ yes Chloé!! hoho says:
I MISS HIM MAN!
ziqi- ٩(͡๏̯͡๏)۶ ٩(-̮̮̃-̃)۶ yes Chloé!! hoho says:
HAHAHA
audaz spaz ~ Fortune doesn't always favour the Brave.. says:
h ha
audaz spaz ~ Fortune doesn't always favour the Brave.. says:
your bestie

to the east

oliver's invited me to his new nest yesterday at tampines. and yes. once again i got myself LOST at the east side again!! damn.. i hate going over to the east side!!!! ahhhh!!

anyway. enough of that. back to oli's new nest!! its simple and really nice!! doesnt look like those typical HDB flat! although i kept telling him that

"oli, the nicest thing in your house is.. YOUR RUBBISH CHUTE!!!" muahahahhahaa

hmm..

was having a little chat with one 'colleague' (from another organisation that i'm working closing with)this morning about our work..

as a volunteer coordinator, sometimes we need to be really 'hyper' (am i using the right word to describe?) in order to bring up the mood and at the same time to engage the volunteers as well. and make them feel comfortable and hopefully can do away with all the initial 'shyness', 'awkward-ness'.. well.. if you never try it YOU WILL NEVER KNOW HOW TIRING IT IS and of course definitely physical and mentally draining.. how do you feel if you go to an event and everyone is so dead?

so he was sharing with me about his admin department's FEEDBACK (sounds more like COMPLAIN to me.. hah) about their volunteer department always not around in the office and seems like they are slacking and not working. hello? before you made this FEEDBACK.. did you actually think about the nature of work that we are doing?? any idea how different is it from your usual admin office job?

now let me share with you my experience.. firstly.. it is a MUST for me to give them a brief presentation about my organisation and the type of people that we are serving and pre warn them about things that might happen while they are here. and through out this 'brief' presentation.. i need to try my best to engage them to share with me and voice out their thoughts and opinions.. man.. it's really not easy.. okay as you know im not someone who can speak really well.. (although i can crap well.. but its DIFFERENT..) so i tend to get really nervous when im talking and will end up mumbling instead... break up into cold sweat (SERIOUS!!) sigh.. need to work hard on this..

ok next.. so everytime whenever there is a new group of volunteers coming in i need to be really HIGH in order to make them feel comfortable so they can enjoy the process.. and make it a fulfilling experiences for them as well as my residents over here.... and sometimes to the extend of acting like a clown? imagine yourself standing in front of all these strangers.. all these pair of eyes looking at me as if im some weirdo.. and everytime repeating the process over and over again.. (i guess i must learn to enjoy it... yeah..) and need to keep thinking of 'creative responses' to engage them and prompt them to keep sharing... ITS REALLY TIRING... seriously after every session I DONT FEEL LIKE TALKING TO ANYONE AND DO ANYTHING AT ALL.. there is a period of time when there are goup volunteers coming in everyday and im basically all worn out! argh..

to some of you it might seems that it is a very easy and relaxing job after all your job is all about meeting people to plan volunteer programs but there is alot of tiny details that you are not aware of unless you experiences it yourself.. like
how you need to keep coming up with new ideas..
how you need to liven up the whole atmosphere..
how you need to make everyone feel at ease...
how you need to prepare everyone beforehand..
how you need to be really HAPPPY FUN INTERESTING even though you feels like shit on that day.. sigh..

AND THERE IS MORE...

so next time think before you pass off any comment about our type of job.. and we definitely welcome you to join us and experience it yourself..

and yes.. im definitely enjoying my job although sometimes i tend to complain about it.. ahahhaa.

SHOCK!

AHHHHHh!!! I FEEEL LIKE SCREAMING OUT LOUD!!! AHHHHHH

guess WHAT? i just received this sms from the social worker...

"Hi, I will come in today. I want to handover the briefing at Hwa Chong Insitute 200 JC students next week and also UPS in hotel ballroom in April. Please start rehearsing."

WTF!! 200 JC STUDENTS AND HOTEL BALLROOOM

WHAT WHAT WHAT???

I CANNOT DO IT! I REALLY CANNOT DO IT!!.. I REALY REALLY REALLLLY CANNOT DO IT!!!!! oh my god.

*i really feel like running away right now.

announcement!

confirmed! is Chloé Lee. :)



of course if you like you can call me Love Lee too.. muahahaha.

but please no COCO LEE!



and yes. from now onwards, no one is going to comment that my name is special or rather WEIRD! when i introduced myself as zeee keeee.. its really convenient and EASY! hahhaa. save me the trouble of always having to spell out my name for others.. which i really really hate although ziqi is only 4 letters. but still.. hahaa.. YAAHOOOOO..

who do you see when you close your eyes?

i used to see you ....

sigh

i seriously need to wake up and stop dreaming!!!!
assignments are due sooon and im totally CLUELESS about what to do.. and i just found out from my classmate that 2 different assignments are due on the SAME DATE!

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!!

p.s- can somebody kick me on my arse to wake me up please? argh

good night world! :)