Reflection

i attended a workshop and am given the task to choose four cards that best represent how i feel at work.
after looking through all the cards, these are the four i picked.

1st card: my job often require me to speak and present in front of a big group. sharing information with various people, etc.

2nd card: i always have to talk to people, smile and make them feel comfortable. sometimes even though i'm having a really bad day am still not able to show it out right. thus often i do feel like i'm wearing a mask.

3rd card: sometimes i do feel like a sales person, trying to "sale" the Cause that i'm fighting for and believed in.

the last card: and i know the special needs community will always have a place in my heart.

random late night rambling

life lesson one

a big part of my job is spent interacting with the family of my residents and i must admit i learn a great deal from them. they taught me lots of valuable life lesson and one thing i admire most is their selfless love shown for my residents. despite the circumstances they are in, they never once gave up on caring for the people they love. utmost respect for them.

and because of that, i am more aware of what i am looking for or rather i want for my future life partner. someone who will take care of both our families (his and mine) and we will do it together.

life lesson two

recently i had a new female resident joining our home and she is a very sweet lady. always greeting people cheerfully whenever she sees you and always telling the other party "you are very good". and trust me she did brighten up my day every single time i meet up with her. her cheerfulness, encouraging comments, concern shown and friendliness to everyone she meet is something very remarkable.

she taught me to be generous with my praises and never stop bringing joy to others. definitely something for us to learn from her... to spread positive words to everyone we encounter.

Another funny conversation

Mum went into the toilet after dad came out from his shower....

Mum "eh how come you wet the whole toilet after your shower?"

Dad "can you teach me how to shower without wetting the toilet?"

Hahahahaha! Sometimes my mum seriously asked the funniest questions! 

Mum.Dog&Me. It's complicated.

My mum is so funny. I can't evennnn!

I shall be diligent and pen down those funny conversation I had with mum over little dog

Mum: do you still want your rice?

Me: I'm done. Brush teeth already.

Mum: I'm not talking to you. I'm talking to the dog!

Hahahahaha. Seriously mum.

Notstrongatall

Last night was literally one of the scariest night of my night. Thinking back now, I'm still very traumatise by what happened.

And I realise that i'm not that strong after all. Sometimes i do need someone to give me a big hug and tell me that everything will be alright. 

thankful

and im very thankful and blessed to meet all the angels around me who help me when i need it. the thank you for believing in me and lending a hand when i need it most. (:

drowningggggg

it's my 5th anniversary with bishan home and i really want to blog a reflection about it but I HAVE NO TIME. damn. literally drowning at work. :(

4th anniversary that i'm planning for the home is this coming saturday and im kind of worried about it. the feeling of did i miss out anything is there. damnnit. seems less planning compared to previous year or maybe that's why im not used to it. hahaha fml. pray hard for me please that everything will go on smoothly. of course the weather please be kind to me and not rain on friday night and whole of saturday. :)

it's the first time we are bringing in uncle ringo for my residents to play with and they are mad excited about it. sounds like an impossible plan initially but im glad we managed to push it through and make it happen!!

we will definitely have fun this saturday and all will be good!! dont stop believing chloe!

trying out a different sunday

decided to get away from my usual "do nothing but 'nua' on my sofa and watch random drama" sunday and sign up for volunteering at AMK hospital with my youth. so basically im 'supervising' my youth when they are there to clock their community service hours. so far so goooood.

but i'm still trying to adapt the routine of going out on a sunday. it sucks especially when i need to work on saturday it means i wont get to rest at all. :(

we shall see how long i can last and whether will i continue volunteering weekly when this project ends. hahahah

One new milestone achieved (:

Confession,

i did think of giving up during the process of preparing and writing the proposal. of course preparing for the presentation slides wasn't easy as well. i'm only allowed 3 minutes to pitch my idea to the corporate judges and without boring them.

Now I'm glad I didn't give up but went through with it. Never will I imagine that I'm able to pitch my cause to 200 people and not freak out on stage.

and the best part now, i managed to secure new corporate sponsors and came in second after ADA. we received a total of 100k grant for this project! the amount raised was way more than what we requested for. very very very blessed indeed.

feels like a dream really..

I kept telling myself that I CAN I CAN I CAN and no. I'm not nervous at all. it didnt work that well because i remember myself shaking and cannot stop peeing. no idea why but overflow of pee whenever i'm nervous. hehehe. sorry too much details.

I'm thankful to meet these amazing people who help me along through this journey. And of course my ever supportive boss who gave me endless opportunities to prove myself... pushing me hard... all for my own personal growth. For helping me out with my proposal and rehearsal. I don't know I'm able to achieve all these without his help.

Right before the event he sms-ed me

"our prayers are with you. we are confident that you can do it. winning or losing is not important. our participation is. for BH to even get to the finals is an achievement in itself. whatever the result - well done for reaching out to the seemingly impossible. for me i take my strength and comfort from god."

:') :') :')

The amazing coaches from MBS who gave me their valuable input and let me understand and see things from the corporate perspective. 

truly blessed indeed to be given this opportunity. yes one new milestone achieved. thank you for believing in me and believing in our cause.

Like I say, today will be even better than yesterday for i'm one step closer... (: (:

thankful and very blessed

Feels like a dream and i still cannot believe that we're number 2! (: (: 

Thankful for all who supported me today, for giving me a chance, encouraging me, and believing in me and the cause I'm fighting for. 

And to my boss, for always giving me lots of opportunities and believing me. Without your guidance, I won't be where I am today. Thank you.

It has been an exciting day with all these anticipations and nervousness. still feeling dizzy with all the news and congratulation. Very very blessed indeed. I should sleep.

And tomorrow will be even better than today for I'm one step closer to my dream. (:

opportunities

"we are so attached to our way of life that we turn down opportunities simply because we don't know what to do."

and i'm at a cross road once again. it's too good an opportunity to give up because i really want to learn from you. i'm not sure if that's what i really want because it's something different from my initial direction but i'm willing to take up the challenge. anyway i'm glad to earn this little recognition and having someone believing in me.

may i find my own way out soon. (:

蓝天 白云

a brand new day awaits.

go chloe

Unable to function without it

"All you need is love but a good cup of coffee never hurts." 

And yep. My one picture per post style is back. Hehehe

Summer.

I can spend the day lazing around the pool with a book and my favourite songs. Perfect way to spend my summer holiday. Not doing anything but nua.

p.s pardon my CUI looking mp3 that I'm not willing to upgrade yet. Been with me for almost 10 years, 对他有感情的哦！

hello KRABI.

Grandma is 89 today!

grandma with part of her grandchildren and great grandchildren. remember those days when we only have to book 4 tables to celebrate our grandparents' birthday and not 7 tables now. our family is indeed growing bigger. (:

Word.

b y e b y e mr. dolphin

I will miss you "forcing" me to say good bye to you when I refuse to do so. 
I will miss "irritating" you until you tell me "enough"! 
I will miss you telling me to go home when I'm working late. 
I will miss talking to volunteers about you. 
I will miss everything about you. 

trick eye museum in Seoul

9 days in seoul and i can't possibly be spending all 9 days shopping. i remember turning really broke on the first few days of the trip and ended up having to ask my friend to send more money over for me. holy shit.

followed my friend's mum for sight seeing one day and my gosh really amazing 3D art work in Trick Eye Museum. it's located somewhere in Hongdae in the basement of a really dodgy commercial building. Had a good time there posing with various work and trying to figure out how it works. some of the art pieces there are really amazing and real. totally love their creativity.

one of my favourite. i remember trying very hard to pose for this picture without looking stupid furthermore, i was wearing a dress.

for once i'm 'tinier' than her! love this illusion 

Escaping Criticism

sent this back home to dad to show him how much i bought. HAHAHA.

so much love! no joke, korea is filled withh lovely dovey couples in couple wear! now where is my missing half?

not too bad a place to visit and the entrance fee is slightly more than $10. cheap. spent almost half a day there as i needed a break from shopping badly. 

a sibei long walk.

friends from thailand came over for a visit and it's always a must to walk them through singapore beautiful landscape.

picked them up at swissotel and walked from Suntec City - MBS - Merlion Park - Esplanade - back to Swissotel. a total of 4 hours from 7.30pm - 11.30pm and i was really hungry cause i rush down after work without any dinner. :( too shy to ask them to get some food first before walking as they already had their dinner. hahaha.

the beautiful helix bridge at night

the icon of singapore

(pit stop) and you can see how tired we look by now

it's always nice to catch up with friends from across the globe and i do miss those people i met last year from different part of the world.

8th May is a special day because

First time.

My first ever DIY wall painting! Did this on one of those random wall in office.

P.s. I know I need to stop my one photo per entry style of blogging. Why so lazy! Hahaahah

4th day of project MAY.

Yes, expectations often leads to disappointment. already didn't place much hope in it but still...

anyway I was whining to my resident how disappointed and sad I was with something and she told me "it's okay, you still have me." Almost teared after hearing that powerful four words from her. They are always that sweet and yes it's really more than a job to me. Thank you and I'm very blessed to have them.

Hang in there Chloe. Don't get distracted and press on. Things will definitely get better. Maybe I should refocus my priority...

"Be the change you wish to see in the world."

3rd may

Almost forgotten to post today and it's only the third day.

Can steal my brother's watch to wear? I WANT. Watch is never enough and it's so swag,

2nd may 2013

memorable 2nd may as it was spent with the ex-colleagues from Fujitsu. Had a good time catching up with everyone and I have grow up and them grow old. I was 19? When I first joined them. Haha.

It was a fun night laughing about the lamest thing and talking about the silliest shit. It makes me even happier when my ex favourite boss told me "I'm happy for you that you have made the right choice, moved on and loving your job now." (:

and shane totally shock everyone of us with his new 'just came out of jungle' look. that beard of his is i dont know how best to describe it. really. hahahahha. definitely will need sometime to adapt to it.

Project MAY.

Out of randomness or rather bo-Liaoness, I decided to embark on a "picture a day" project for may.

Im a super "short attention span" person. Hopefully I can really be determined enough to post up one picture a day. (:

getting ready to visit the vet. Little dog looking at me with a sad face screaming "let me out please." She was literally shaking when I put her in. Awww.

Appreciation

Energy boost and yes it's all worth it. (:

miss.

finally a different sunday

and i love love love spending my sunday in this way. (:

late again.

checked in for work one morning and i smiled to myself when i read the message my colleague left for me on the system.

HAHAH. yes yes. old habit dies hard. i'm always forever late that when i'm early my colleagues are SHOCK and they even ask me "why you come so early today?" can you believe it?

i WANT TO CHANGE. I MUST CHANGE. NO MORE COMING LATE CHLOE.

put up this little reminder below my mirror and hopefully i can brainwash myself to wake up at 7.30am everyday. and of course to love my job even more and enjoy what i'm doing. (:

i'm so glad my drive is back. so many plans and projects that i'm really excited about. i enrolled myself for shit loads of stuff btw. time management will be a big challenge this year and i'm actually quite excited to start and make myself busy. this is a year to plan and make things happen chloe! GO!

school is fun.

so school started yesterday and it was tiring or rather fun (think positive!) having to rush down to school immediately after work. class starts at 6.30pm btw and i dont even have time for dinner. great i shall take this opportunity to eat less and hopefully my bloody weight will drop too. wahahaha.

i do hope i can survive the whole week of traveling down to buona vista everyday from bishan. 1 hour to and fro. heard that there is no exam only assignments for this diploma. THANK YOU GYM!

dont ask me why do i want to take another diploma when i already completed my degree.. think. have you ever wanted to do something that badly that you will go all way out to get it? this is where i see my years 5 or even 10 years later.. i hope. doing even more for this very special community and hopefully see a change and even improve the way things are now. oh yea my little dream. (:

i left school since 2011 and brain been lazy since then. it's time to slowly tune my body and mind back. i can cope. i can do it. yes! because this is what i really want and enjoy the most! go chloe!

Prayer answered

Happiest email received today and I'm really excited and can't wait to start school. I remember waiting so long for this one confirmation email from them and totally smiled to myself when I received it.

Finally one good news to kick start the snake year and I'm sure even more amazing things will be in stall for me. Go Chloe! :D

oh bruno

i'm in love.

reminder to self

be contented

be humble, stay humble

it's ok not to know everything

never neglect the feelings of others

stay positive and be encouraging

never kill anyone dreams

always listen with an open heart

LISTEN

life lesson

few months back one of my resident was diagnosed with last stage cancer and he managed to go through treatments and prolong his life. the treatment didn't work eventually but he is definitely one of the strongest person i know. he never once let his illness bother him and stop him from doing what he enjoy most.

often when we know that we are dying, we ended up getting really upset over it. we spent most of our time thinking about our illness and worrying over it. we forget to enjoy and cherish the remaining time. we forget to continue doing what we love when we are well. we forget how to live like we used to be.

through my resident's experience, i learnt that it doesn't matter how serious your illness is, what is important to still continue doing what you love and enjoy. we shouldn't let our illness take over our life. our pain and suffering shouldn't be constantly on our mind or rather we shouldn't even be thinking about it. we should continue to live our remaining life happily and not spend it worrying over everything.

we should find something to look forward to as it will keep us going as well.

2nd month of 2013

started 2013 with 2 big bites on both hands, followed by never ending cough, unknown rashes on my face/ neck and now i sprain my back while trying to pass my dog over to my dad. btw, it's just a mini turn nothing too siong. and now it still hurt like a bitch. f. am i really growing old? :(

BODY. PLEASE BE GOOD AND STOP GIVING ME PROBLEM.