Appreciation

Energy boost and yes it's all worth it. (:

miss.

finally a different sunday

and i love love love spending my sunday in this way. (:

late again.

checked in for work one morning and i smiled to myself when i read the message my colleague left for me on the system.

HAHAH. yes yes. old habit dies hard. i'm always forever late that when i'm early my colleagues are SHOCK and they even ask me "why you come so early today?" can you believe it?

i WANT TO CHANGE. I MUST CHANGE. NO MORE COMING LATE CHLOE.

put up this little reminder below my mirror and hopefully i can brainwash myself to wake up at 7.30am everyday. and of course to love my job even more and enjoy what i'm doing. (:

i'm so glad my drive is back. so many plans and projects that i'm really excited about. i enrolled myself for shit loads of stuff btw. time management will be a big challenge this year and i'm actually quite excited to start and make myself busy. this is a year to plan and make things happen chloe! GO!

school is fun.

so school started yesterday and it was tiring or rather fun (think positive!) having to rush down to school immediately after work. class starts at 6.30pm btw and i dont even have time for dinner. great i shall take this opportunity to eat less and hopefully my bloody weight will drop too. wahahaha.

i do hope i can survive the whole week of traveling down to buona vista everyday from bishan. 1 hour to and fro. heard that there is no exam only assignments for this diploma. THANK YOU GYM!

dont ask me why do i want to take another diploma when i already completed my degree.. think. have you ever wanted to do something that badly that you will go all way out to get it? this is where i see my years 5 or even 10 years later.. i hope. doing even more for this very special community and hopefully see a change and even improve the way things are now. oh yea my little dream. (:

i left school since 2011 and brain been lazy since then. it's time to slowly tune my body and mind back. i can cope. i can do it. yes! because this is what i really want and enjoy the most! go chloe!

Prayer answered

Happiest email received today and I'm really excited and can't wait to start school. I remember waiting so long for this one confirmation email from them and totally smiled to myself when I received it.

Finally one good news to kick start the snake year and I'm sure even more amazing things will be in stall for me. Go Chloe! :D

oh bruno

i'm in love.

reminder to self

be contented

be humble, stay humble

it's ok not to know everything

never neglect the feelings of others

stay positive and be encouraging

never kill anyone dreams

always listen with an open heart

LISTEN

life lesson

few months back one of my resident was diagnosed with last stage cancer and he managed to go through treatments and prolong his life. the treatment didn't work eventually but he is definitely one of the strongest person i know. he never once let his illness bother him and stop him from doing what he enjoy most.

often when we know that we are dying, we ended up getting really upset over it. we spent most of our time thinking about our illness and worrying over it. we forget to enjoy and cherish the remaining time. we forget to continue doing what we love when we are well. we forget how to live like we used to be.

through my resident's experience, i learnt that it doesn't matter how serious your illness is, what is important to still continue doing what you love and enjoy. we shouldn't let our illness take over our life. our pain and suffering shouldn't be constantly on our mind or rather we shouldn't even be thinking about it. we should continue to live our remaining life happily and not spend it worrying over everything.

we should find something to look forward to as it will keep us going as well.

2nd month of 2013

started 2013 with 2 big bites on both hands, followed by never ending cough, unknown rashes on my face/ neck and now i sprain my back while trying to pass my dog over to my dad. btw, it's just a mini turn nothing too siong. and now it still hurt like a bitch. f. am i really growing old? :(

BODY. PLEASE BE GOOD AND STOP GIVING ME PROBLEM.

choose one?

leaving little inspiration notes around my work place.

Sealed.

I remember her saying "what the fuck!" the moment she opened her house door. Hahah! But still it's really sweet of her boyfriend to plan this simple but sweet surprise proposal for her. Effort x 100000000!

And I laugh at her repeating it non stop to us "i waited 5 years for this ring!" Hahahah!

Tonight is one happy day because one of my closest girlfriend is engaged! Yes it's so scary how we are all really growing up and about to move to marriage life. Another close girlfriend getting married this October. Next babies will start popping out! HAHA.

Mine is still empty as ever and I think he is lost somewhere still trying to find his way to me. (:

三菜一汤

was on mc on monday because i woke up with unknown rashes on my face and it was red and itchy! because i have nothing better to do and thought of being a filial daughter i decided to cook!

so proud of my own random creation! HAHA

i can really cook kkkkkkkkkkk!

Joy of my life

I'm amazed by how much joy my residents brought to me. Spending time with them is always fun and full of laughter and most importantly stress-free. I remember laughing so much today that my jaw aches when I'm on my way back home today.

I always end up smiling to myself whenever I look through those photos I took of them. Sometimes laughing at their silliness. :P Their faces are always filled with their brightest smile and ready to greet you with it when they see you.

Often I have people asking me "don't you feel sad working in an environment like this?"

Why should I feel that way when I have residents lifting me up when i'm down. Talking to me like i'm their most trusted person in the world. Patting my back when they hear me coughing, offering to even get water for me. Yes they scold me too for drinking cold water. (:

I'm thankful to meet every single one of them, showering me with love and care like a family.

I'm thankful to have them in my life, lifting me up in their own little ways.

the superwoman in my life.

5 countries in a year

2012 is definitely the year i travelled the most.

started off with a trip to seoul in end april, left for chiangmai in july and indonesia in end august. nope i traveling didn't end there. i continue to book a trip to bangkok in november and randomly decided to visit my friend's hometown in manila.

i guess being grounded in 2011 kinda sparks off my crazy traveling in 2012.

no i'm rich like how some of you may think i am. i'm just more willing to spend on traveling and thank god i dont get myself broke on branded stuffs or rather i dont spent a few k on bags although i do shop excessively sometimes.

i saw this quote somewhere and totally love and swear to live by it! HAHAHA

"Club Monaco dresses and Chanel makeup are not good reasons to be broke. But plane tickets, traveling, and new experiences are."

and i hope 2013 will bring me even more new amazing experiences.

a recap of 2012

already into the third week of 2013 weeks and i finally decided to start my reflection for 2012. oops

2012 started off rough with lots of uncertainty in life, career and i dont know what. i remember feeling really down, lost and totally unsure about what's next for the next chapter of my life. 25, quarter of a century old if i live over 100.

anyhow, i'm glad now it's all over. i'm clearer about my direction now and hopefully things will turn out to be bloody awesome, fantastic, amazing! i'm really looking forward to it and i know it will not be a smooth journey but i will definitely go through it all and make it better! go go go!

2012 was a year filled with many first time for me.

first time i got CPR certified
first time i got a promotion
first time i embarked on my solo overseas volunteer trip
first time i got acknowledged on a volunteering website
first time i bungy JUMPED
first time i ride an elephant
first time i travelled five different countries in a year
first time i participated in a self initiated project HELLO STRANGER
first time i appeared on MCYS annual report
first time i created many different art work
first time i organized a sit down dinner function for work
first time i got really discouraged with things at work

and the list goes on...

i'm not sure what 2013 has for me but again i'm sure it will be even more fantastic/amazing/awesome than 2012.

it's going to be a year filled with travelling (i hope), more volunteering and of course turning dreams in to reality. i'm so excited and cant wait to make it happen. wish me luck people.

and i sincerely hope that 2013 will be equally amazing for you like how it will be for me. may it be one that is filled with endless laughter, love and happiness. yes love i need some love in my life.

my soulmate where are you? (:

superdog is my middle name

and i'm ready to save the world now...

bought this suit for little doggy on TB and we had a good time laughing at her when she wore it. adorable little dog. yes i still love her like mad and still love to irritate her like mad too. part of the package i guess. (:

that two months.

i realised i didn't blog a reflection about this trip. HOW CAN. it's one of my bucket list item yo! hahah so here you go.

i embarked on my first solo trip in july last year and no doubt i learned lots during these two months. i learn that sometimes you need to take that first step and things will naturally fall in place. you want it oh so badly, so you will make sure that you will achieve it; your end goal.

the truth is, i didn't plan much for this trip. just bought my ticket, emailed the counterpart in chiangmai and off i go. one day before the trip, i have friends asking me "what if they didn't pick you up at the airport?" btw, i didn't even check the address of the organisation that i contacted! seriously sometimes i'm too trusting or maybe too simple minded that i tend not to think too deeply about things concerning myself. ziqi, time to love yourself more. not every stranger you meet is nice. sometimes even your closest loved ones betray you too. that's life. i need take note of my "anything also can" attitude and not let it appear too often.

i'm glad my whole trip turn out to be fantastic and again i'm thankful for everyone i met there, treating me like their family and taking great care of me. i'm totally touch by their ability to love me (a stranger) and yes this is something that i'm definitely going to learn from them.

during my trip, i met this group of youth from new york. boy am i glad to have their company. they kept me company during my first few weeks in chiangmai. it was definitely less lonely with them around. parting was definitely hard as i had no idea when will i see them again. took down their address and promised to send them a card which i haven't done it till now. damn chloe damn. stop being lazy and send it!

after they left, i worked with the group from singapore. i was really excited about it after all it's always nice to meet fellow singaporeans when you are away from home. well, let's just say in the end it didnt turn out as well with the previous group. the team wasn't as bonded or maybe it's just me. joining them, i learnt the importance of the role of an encouraging leader. a leader who dont just scold/ critisize but affirm and encourage. a leader who set a good example. and i will reflect too on the way i handle situations.

working with them let me see how sometimes we come with our own set of "oh so wonderful" perfect ideas that we want to impose on them; but we forgotten whether it's feasible in their circumstances. if it's really what they need. are we meeting their needs or ours? is meeting our KPI that important that sometimes we forgot the process while enjoying it. sometimes we should always take a step back and look at things from the other party's perspectives too; to understand their stand. trust me it's not that hard. yes this is another important reminder to self.

within that one and a half month, i have learned and experiences things that i never know i'm capable of. i ride an elephant, did bamboo rafting anddd bunge JUMPED. to date, my biggest achievement ever! 

i rebuild a playground, dig holes, lay bricks like a pro and totally understand how hard the foreign workers are working in singapore. all the tough jobs that require us to use so much of our physical energy. all the jobs that no one want to do.

well, the amazing thing is the kids there even stayed back with us on weekends to work together to rebuild their playground! beat that! they do not need all these expensive gadgets to be happy and have fun.

the people that i encounter everywhere are always polite and nice. and yes i will learn from them to be polite and nice to everyone i meet. remember to always stay humble and say thank you.

somehow i really enjoy this little adventure of mine and actually looking foward to plan for another trip. i always have this urge to just leave again. if only my life can be that carefree that i can just leave as and when i like. it's easy for me to leave but never easy for the one whom i left behind during the pursue of my own dreams. my parents and grandma, always having to make them worry about me. remember you are growing up and they are growing old too. dilemma when byou want to always be there with them but another part of you will always say "you only live once! just go for it! why care so much and you wont want to end up regretting when you are old!" but again i dont want to regret not being there for them too.

it's addictive to just disappear for a few months not having to care or worry about anything. you just have to care about yourself. sounds like running away from problems but i feel we need a break too!! alright i will still continue to plan for trips but maybe a shorter one? haha

Again.

So I got bitten again by the same dog. This time I was being nice, trying to feed him chicken but that bugger decided to attack my hand instead! Wtf.

Officially hurt both hands. Yes for sure it's one BLOODY awesome fantastic good great start to 2013 and it will remain that BLOODY fantastic. I'm so looking forward to it already. (: