why so sudden?

that one message i always hate to receive, my loves one informing me that their family member passed away. :( received this message today from my gf and it was so sudden. i didnt see her for 2 months only and the next time i met up with her was at her dad's funeral.

the last time i met up with her families and relatives was during her wedding and the next time when i meet them again is at a funeral. life is that fragile.

her dad was suppose to be here on holiday plus a body checkup but who knows he couldnt make it back home. and they were so upset about his soul not being able to make his way home to manila. it's sad when you died in a foreign country. it's so sudden and everything happened less than a month. this is going to be especially hard for her mum who rely everything on her dad. her one and only companion is gone now. :( no one should go through such a heartbreaking thing. i dont know what i will do if it's me. hai.

and you know what? it's freaking true when they say "you can die but never fall sick in singapore." their medical bills are over 200k. can you freaking believe it? friend was sharing with me about how the hospital refused to release the body only until they pay the bills. wtf. 

i pray that they will be strong enough to go through this difficult period. please do not let anymore bad news happen to anyone.

today i am really thankful that my parents are still around and healthy. please continue to bless them with good health and happiness. i will promise to be a good daughter.

quick go tell everyone you love that you love them before it's too late because you wont know what is going to happen tomorrow. 

Update

Don't worry, I'm still alive. (:
Wireless for 1 week and friends are asking if I'm ok. HAHAHA. The orphanage that I went to was up in the mountain.

Anyway, it's good to be away for awhile managed to read. Which is good because back in Singapore I always got distracted by my phone. One night I had one weird dreams of things happening in Singapore and started getting paranoid. Immediately made a call home, glad that everyone is safe and happy. The problem of being disconnected from the world, you start getting worried over everything.

Anyhow where am i now? After a 1 hour plane ride, 7 hour bus journey and 1.5 hour ferry ride, I'm finally here in lake toba. Beautiful place but journey here is looooong. Staying here for 2 nights before heading back.

And this is the last part of my little adventure. Time to adjust myself and get ready for work!! YES' :D

bye chiangmai :'(

i'm seriously touch by everyone's love for me and coming down to send me off even though some of them live far away. :')

it's indeed one meaningful 40 days spent in chiangmai as i get to experience and do things that i never think i'm capable of doing and i get to meet people from all over the world.

i'm so so so glad that i choose to come to chiangmai for my volunteer trip and get to make friends with all these amazing people.

i came to chiangmai alone without knowing anyone. p'apple was the one who picked me up and yes she was there to send me off too. still remember how worried i was if she didnt turn up at the airport to pick me up. what is going to happen to me? haha. i'm definitely going to miss her and really thank her for taking good care of me during my stay in chiangmai, giving me a chance to experience many different things and always being so patient, nice and caring. i call her my chiangmai's mummy. 

just like that 40 days gone. it's true when they say that time flies when you are having fun.

i have no idea when i will be back to chiangmai again even though they are always telling me to go back. i really want toooo. but...

i met up with one fellow volunteers from US one day and boy her experience was totally different from mine. she stayed in a village area and no one there speaks english. she had a hard time communicating with them and trying to adapt to the culture. not only that she is the only volunteer there assigned to that village.

i'm really lucky to meet all these people who take good care of me and make me feel at home. and they are always bringing me out, making me laugh and most importantly they speaks english thus making things much more easier for me. 

and i do hope we will meet again some day, i will miss you for sure.

am now back in singapore but leaving again on this sunday for the second part of my adventure. cant wait but it's so tiring to pack and unpack. i wonder how those stewardess did it. went back to office today and boss dragged me in for one meeting the moment he sees me. holy shit. but YES I CAN. AND I WILL SURVIVEEEE.

Note to self

"don't rush into it when making any important decisions."

Dear self,

Please, please remember this reminder and not do anything silly that might cause you to regret for the rest of your life.

With love,
Chloe

(conclusion I get from the conversation tonight, which I think is very true and useful.)

bungy jump in chiangmai, thailand

a leap of faith. 

i reckon you  need to do something crazy when you are young and healthy. so i went ahead to sign up for bungy jump. alone. yes. no one want to do it with me. it's 2000baht ($80) per jump and they find it expensive.

                                    

few weeks back, my thai's friend (Tong) was randomly sharing with me about him wanting to try bungy. my reaction at that time was HELL NO. THAT'S CRAZY. but no idea why one morning i just woke up with this thought in my mind that "hey, im going to do bungy jump. yes i'm going to jump." everyone was shock when i told them about it and nobody believe that i want to do it.

i told lms online about it and he say "you are even afraid of cliff diving and you sure you want to do this? go try other easier jump first. 50 metres is fucking high and enough to make you shit your pants. i remember seeing a person shit on his pants after jumping off." wtf. HAHAHA and he proceed to ask me any last words? damn. such encouraging friends.

quek "you dont even dare to sit the rollar coaster and you want to do bungy jump? siao ah?" 

thai friends "hopefully no earthquake!! i dont want to see news of you causing earthquake in chiangmai!" hahaha they are so cute sometimes. 

despite all the negative comments from my buddies, i went ahead to do it. no idea why am i so determinded this time round. i kinda brain wash myself everyday "just jump only. nothing to be afraid of."

 (taking my weight)

            

i'm seriously so proud or rather FUCKING proud of myself for doing this. i stopped playing extreme sports (not that i tried many) and suddenly one day i'm doing bungy jump? wtf.

(getting ready)

               

 

thinking back i really wonder where i got my courage from. holy shit.

(on my way up)

i remember grabbing on to the pole refusing to let go before jumping, saying wtf.omg.nonono non stop.

 

the instructor who stayed with me was trying all ways to convince me to let go of my hand. HAHAHA. and before i knew it, i was flying in the air! screamed non stop and when i cooled down, i open my eyes and started to check out the amazing view. gotta thank the instructor for helping me with the jump, i think he 'push' me down. me no balls to do it myself. LOL.

omg im so brave. im so brave. im so brave. biggest achievement unlock for this year.

totally shaking non stop. when i'm done, they were asking me to do it again. hell no. once is enough i think.

in case you are wondering, a pole was given to me, grab it and that's how i come down.

i told my parents about it and mum and dad's reaction were different. dad "why you waste your money to do this? you should use the money to buy more things and donate to the children there!" LOLOL. mum "wah, you not scare arh? and start to laugh at me." i love you twoooo seriously. and i cant wait to show them the pictures. one stranger took a video of me jumping, she showed me but too bad i dont have the file with me. :(

the guy that helped me for my little adventure.

it suddenly came to me that the first half of 2012 is seriously really amazing for me. i did things that i never think i will do. traveling alone, bungy jump, etc. and not forgetting meeting all these amazing people that somehow inspire me in one way or another. (:

i am thankful for everything and everyone that i have in my life now. 2012, please continue to be that amazing for me and everyone. (:

last 15 days.

time flies and it's my last 15 days left in chiangmai: the land of smiles. for sure i'm going to miss this place and everyone i met here. life is so relax and peaceful over here that i really dont want to go back. i dont want to go back to my stressful and miserable working life in singapore. i dont want to go back to reality. back in singapore, i hate writing letters, sending emails but over here in chiangmai, i'm still doing it here but somehow enjoying it. hahaha.

i met many people here from different parts of the world. the other day i happened to meet up with people from taiwan. boy was i so happen to talk to them. i started talking non stop to them in chinese and was telling them how happy i am finally able to talk to people in chinese. hahaha everyone here is speaking in thai and i dont understand. :(

moving off to indonesia, nia after chiangmai. i will be bunking at the orphanage there. i'm looking forward yet feeling........ i don't know.

september is going to be one crap month as the ever so irritating anniversary is coming again in october. boss already started having lots of questions for me about this year event. :( sleepless night again. and end of year is always f busy for me. i can already picture myself leaving office late every night. maybe i will just keep thinking about my year end manila trip. maybe this will make me happier. :) it suddenly dawned on me that 2012 is ending already. wtf. FAST OR WHAT. time to reflect what i did for the past few months and if i did fulfilled the 'goals' i set early this year. before i forget, i need to get my driving license! MUST.

even when i'm away for my 2 months break, i'm still providing work support for my colleague back home. i is so nice. i know. and she told me that she accepted a lot of volunteers! :O heard from her that social work department is really peaceful when i'm not around. shit. why is it not peaceful when i took over? the number of incidents happened when i took over is 123456789. i seriously bring shit to my department. please let it be better when i go back.

crap i realise i always turn really negative when i'm talking about work. i need to be think more positive, be more positive then things will work out well. I'M SO LOOKING FORWARD TO GO BACK TO WORK IN SEPTEMBER!!! :D YESSSSSS! hahaha.