champion for a day

last year a few of my residents participated in special olympics 2009 and they did us proud by winning back some medals for us. (:

and this year we got invited to join KCPPS in their annual sport's day. they even invited a few of my residents to participate in a simple race (60m).

it was a first time for a few residents who didnt get a chance (for various reasons) to participate in special O. and i'm sure it's also an unforgettable day for them. (:


i'm very thankful to have volunteers like them who remembered to show care and concern for the less fortunate. whom like us, are working hard to make their life as enriching and interesting as possible.

i really appreciate the kind thoughts they put in preparing the medals and trophy for my clients. i can never forget the look on their faces when they crossed the finishing lines and waited eagarly to collect their medals. that moment of happiness in them..

we decided to put this particular resident in even though he cant run fast. what motivated us to select him is his "never give up's attitude". yes, he cant run fast and even came in last but he perserve till the end and never give up! i'm really proud of him. you should see his happy and cheerful face when he finished the race. it doesnt matter to him that he came in last.. what matter most is HE COMPLETED THE RACE despite the difficulties he faced base on his own abilities. and this is something that we should learn from him. never give up.. never say die.. despite how bad the situation is. perserve on and you will be greeted with a beautiful rainbow after the rain.

the champions in my heart! (:


oh.. im honoured to be given the opportunity to give out medals/ trophy to the students. my first time and it's an incredible experience! hahaa. never will i dream of being treated like a 'VIP' for that day. hahaha. thank you for giving me this opportunity to share the joy with the winners! (:

they really felt like champion for a day, which makes them proud and happy.
thank you for bringing joy into their life and gave them an unforgettable experiences. (:

有一點動心

老歌还是最好听！这首歌说出了我现在的想法。

我對你有一點動心
卻如此害怕看妳的眼睛
有那麼一點點動心　一點點遲疑
不敢相信我的情不自禁

我對你有一點動心
不知結果是悲傷還是喜
有那麼一點點動心　一點點遲疑
害怕愛過以後還要失去

high up the sky!

second time up singapore flyer in a month!
first was with melvyn when i joined him for his event
and now second time with my dearest colleagues..

and i still remembered how excited was I on the very first time when melvyn told me that we are going up the flyer!! excited until i cannot sleep and when i step on the flyer i actually lao bak sai!! hahaha JUST KIDDING!

but once i went up the flyer.. i realise that it's actually nothing.. like just sitting or standing there and looking at the not that fantastic scenery..

but what cracks me up is.... "MELVYN IS ACTUALLY SCARE OF HEIGHT!! HAHAHAHAHA" he was kind of panicking when we went higher and higher... but got to salute him... scare of height but he still went ahead!

even though he look kind of okay.... but he is actually panicking inside!! hahahaha

and look he is holding the pole until damn tight! hahaha

but glad he didnt faint during the ride! if not.... HAHAHAHAHA *cannot imagine*

anyway.. i guess i wont be going up there for the time being.. it's really nothing fantastic up there. wonder what's all the raves about! hmm....

twitter!

and yes i fall into iPhone's trap and naturally i got hooked onto twitter too.
it's way much easier to update my random thoughts!
so guess there might be a possibility that i will start neglecting my blog. :(

but anyway.. follow me on twitter now at

http://twitter.com/averysillywoman

i seriously cant stop twitting!!! muahahahaha

:'(

grandma dearest left us.

finally went up to grandma dearest's house earlier today after she left us. it's the first time when i'm there and she's not around. it feels so weird when i opened the door to her house.

the table that is always filled with yummy foods is now empty. yes things are never going to be the same again. i am so used to her presence in the house that it feels weird without her by my side.

it came so sudden that when it happened i dont even know what to do. i even tried my best to delay myself from attending her funeral on the first day. unfilial granddaughter. (i'm sorry grandma dearest. i simply cant accept the fact that you are gone.)

i sat in the kitchen and looked around (it's her territory!) .. trying my best to remember every single details that i see. and i thought i saw her standing there.. smiling at me..

tears started flowing when it finally hit me that she is gone forever. it seems only yesterday when we were still joking and talking to her in the kitchen. but now she's gone to a faraway land.

grandma dearest,

are you adapting well over there? i really hope so. but not us because we are still trying to come to term with your sudden departure. but dont worry about us. we will be fine. :) well i'm sure you are now having a happy reunion with grandpa dearest, third aunt and fourth aunt. :P

things are going to be different from now onwards but dont worry. we will cope and go through it all.

till we meet again grandma dearest.
i miss you so so sooo much.
there are lots of things that i have yet to tell/ do/ show you.
and you left me.

i pray that you are happy wherever you are now.

always in my heart,
ah girl.

grandma dearest

i was looking through those photos we took with grandma dearest on chinese new year and it bought tears to my eyes. we demanded to take pictures with her which she strongly refused as she complained about her untidy hair. (hahah! that's her!) but somehow we managed to convince her or rather i manage to force her (by holding down her arms!! hehehe) that she looks pretty and her hair is just fine. she was all smiley and cheerful when taking the pictures with us. but now she is lying in the hospital unconscious.. fighting for her life. i hate to say this but i dont like the idea of spending my next cny without her.. because it's never going to be the same.

grandma dearest with her other grandchildren

grandma dearest with part of her daughters


everyone hate to see her leave but will it bring more suffering to her if she continues in this way? i dont know. but one thing for sure.. we are not ready to lose her yet.

how i wish it's all nothing but a bad bad dream...

i haven't been a very filial granddaughter to her yet. lesser trips were made to her house as we grew older. from a weekly visit i ended up visiting her once a month and sometimes once a few months..

and yes i regret not spending more time with her. and yet again.. sometimes you need to lose before you know how to cherish. (fret not i havent lose her yet! she will be fine) i remember her always asking me to eat whenever i visit her. always making it a point to cook my favourite cabbage (that's my favourite dish cooked by her and i will do anything to eat it again.) whenever i'm there. that's her.. always worried about us.. remembering our likes and dislikes... she is an angel to us all. :)

grandma dearest,

doctor told us that you might not make it past today. but you did it and manage to prove him wrong!! (although we almost lost you.. but you did it in the end with your determination! :)well done!!) so miracles do happen after all. and being the stubborn you.. i'm sure it will happen to you tooo.

i know you are tired... and i will let you rest a little bit more.. but you must remember and promise to wake up when it's time too. because we are all waiting for you. your children, grandchildren and great grandchildren... everyone of us.

with love,
your dearest granddaughter. :)

:)

taken on CNY 2010 with grandma dearest.


我知道你累了。。在让你睡多一下下，不过答应我你一定要记得起来因为我们在等你。

新年快乐!

new clothes,
lotsa good foodies,
yummy steamboat,
gathering with friends/ relatives
and of course the most important ANG BAOS!!!

muahahahaha

a blessed and prosperous chinese new year to all my dearest.. :)
let's us HUAT TOGETHER YEA!!!

with random people im shy, with my friends i'm crazy!!

someone created a fan page for "with random people im shy, with my friends i'm crazy!!" on facebook

and yes i of course i request to be a fan for that laaah!! haha.. this is so true. often i find it hard to open up to people that i dont know and feel uncomfortable hanging out with them. feel weird without my usual crazy khakis around to go crazy with me. and sometimes i really sian when i happen to bump into random people that i know at work. cause i will need to start a conversation with him/ her!! and i always worried about "what if we got nothing to say?" "what if what i say sounds stupid to him/ her?"

there are times when i started to panic and think of what should i do to avoid that awkwardness! and it's tiring to keep thinking about what to say but my job requires me to be really 'bubbly' and open as i'm always meeting volunteers and it's my job to 'entertain' them when there are here. it's really tiring...

if i dont talk much to you on the first time or remain very quiet or ACT very cool.. is not i dao or what. just that im not ready to open up to you yet!! but when i start to do crazy stuff and talk nonsense with you... i think that's the time when im slowly turning into HUMAN!! hahahah aiyaaa i really find it hard to be myself when im with random people. after all not everyone can accept my way right?

anyway.. it's a meaningless entry.. just ranting as usual..

5 days in phuket

i love impromptu trip like this. bee told me that they are thinking of going to phuket for a few days and ask if im interested.. of course on laah! i totally heart beach holiday. need some sun sea and sand badly. the last beach holiday i went was in april 2009 with the ecu peeps. so just nice for another one.. and i swear i must make it to maldives before i die!! been hearing lotsa stories about that place.. hopefully my future husband will bring me there as a honeymooon trip yeah! hahaha.

and i shall term this trip as "beginning of the year encouragement trip!" haha.

lion, bobo, bee and bong's little adventure in phuket..

we spent 5 days in phuket and everyday we got con by people. they just love to jack up the prices when they know that you are tourist.. one typical example that happened when we are out shopping (thanks to the dj bee for typing this out! she is the best story teller around!! really LOL non stop when i read it.)

shopkeeper: "did piece (plain singlet), i gib you 500 baht. very cheap oredi mam"
zk: no, sorry too expensive.
-walk away-
shopkeeper: "okok, how much you want mam?"
zk: 150 baht... See More
shopkeeper: " cannot mam, best pry i gib you 350 baht"
zk: sorry it's ok then.
-walks away further-
shopkeeper: "okok, best pry 300 baht. very cheap mam"
zk: sorry it's ok
shopkeeper" how much you want mam?"
zk: 150 baht
shopkeeper: "really cannot mam. pris, today me no business i gib you good pry oredi. okok final pry 250 baht."
zk: no thanks
-walks away for good-
shopkeeper: ok lah ok lah, 150 baht for you mam.
*ting ting ting* bingo!

you see? from 500 baht to 150 baht!! seriously wtf! initially i was really shy to bargain with them.. i still feel abit pai seh to lower the price.. but after being con a few times.. i decided to hack care.. and i learnt that the 'walk away' tactic alway works!! hahaha.

anyway.. back to happier and much exciting things...

i tried para sailing!!! omg! my first time!! it's really expensive but worth it lah. 1000 baht ($40) for a few minutes in the sky. i was kind of apprehensive at first... worried that i might just fall from the sky.. what if the strings decided to break because im too heavy.. etc. etc.. the take off was scary though.. but the view up there was amazing.. and i really feels like you are flying! flying like a bird! hahaa. and will i do it again? hmm... not in phuket but some other nicer beaches like maldives? hahaha. only thing is i hope i can have a longer time up there..

preparing to take offff.... weeeeee!! and i must salute the guy behind me that took me on this amazing experience.. if you notice he is not wearing any safety vest not even a life jacket.. and throughout the whole journey he is just clinging on to the strings behind me and holding on to me. they are not even worried about falling down. imagine you holding on to a string only, flying through the ocean and you need to make sure that you had a safe landing.... can you do that? so it's money well spent.. he fucking risk his life to take you for an once in a life time experience eh.

during the trip, we went to phi phi island as well. on the way there the transport that supposed to fetch us there broke down. sibei heng leh we all! hahaha tyre punctured


it's a very beautiful place. clear water! was so excited when i went there. and i finally tried snorkeling!! the hotel guy bought some breads for us and told us to bring it along with us and feed the fishes!! my first time swimming with the fishes.. whenever you throw a bread they will all swam towards you. nice.

camwhoring at maya beach

re reading the undomestic goddess. my companion for the 5 days. and reading this book reminds me that sometimes we need to slow down and take a look at the things, people around us. to find yourself.. to fall in love.. to LIVE. you only live once. so live your life to the fullest!! life is too precious to be waste. dont spent all your time working and ended up neglecting the people around you and forgetting how to enjoy life.. we need to work but when it's time to rest.. REST.

and happiness is time spent lazing on the beach, tanning, reading a nice book and relaxing.. if only i can do this everyday... her books never fail to make me smile to myself while reading.. all time favourite author!

we came and left. 5 days spent together doing silly stuffs and not having to worry about work and other random nonsenses.



and now it's time to leave and snap back to reality.. back to work and back to the stressful life in singapore. time to work hard at work. i know that this year is going to be a year filled with lots of projects and random nonsenses for me. more and more demands from boss. HANG ON ZIQI! YOU CAN DO IT!! (:

all things come to an end.. but we can always plan for more trips right? like what lionel says when we are back in singapore "it's time to plan for the next trip!!" hahaha.

Fallin’ For You (:

I don’t know but
I think I maybe
Fallin’ for you
Dropping so quickly
Maybe I should
Keep this to myself
Waiting ’til I
Know you better

I am trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I’m scared of what you’ll say
So I’m hiding what I’m feeling
But I’m tired of
Holding this inside my head

I’ve been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’ve been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’m fallin’ for you

As I’m standing here
And you hold my hand
Pull me towards you
And we start to dance
All around us
I see nobody
Here in silence
It’s just you and me

I’m trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I’m scared of what you’ll say
So I’m hiding what I’m feeling
But I’m tired of
Holding this inside my head

I’ve been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’ve been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’m fallin’ for you

Oh I just can’t take it
My heart is racing
The emotions keep spinning out

I’ve been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’ve been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’m fallin’ for you

I can’t stop thinking about it
I want you all around me
And now I just can’t hide it
I think I’m fallin’ for you (x2)

I’m fallin’ for you

Ooohhh
Oh no no
Oooooohhh
Oh I’m fallin’ for you

my first new year resolution! hahah

Joseph says:
Happy New Year
what's ur new year resolution? irritate more elderly people?

Chloe.Ziqi- says:
hey happy new year!
my new year resolution to make joseph make more donation to bishan home!!
hahahah

Joseph says:
LOl!!!

Chloe.Ziqi- says:
so are you going to make my new year resolution COME TRUE??

Joseph says:
u r irritating as usual

the last day of 2009

it was supposed to be a joyous occasion as we welcome a brand new year but i received a pretty bad news in the morning that might just affect me for the rest of my life. yes that's how serious it is. although nothing is confirm yet.. but i just pray for the best. pray for me too. dont worry it's not life threatening. and the doctor say "at least it's not cancer." but fuck at that moment i was thinking "I WOULD RATHER IT BE CANCER than being alive and aware to suffer this. i'm not that strong seriously. although i hope i am." i'm a faker.. there is no cure for this! anyway like what my colleague say "you don't have to use skin whitening product anymore!!" oh seriously FUCK OFF! and yes i told him that straight away. well at least i will still be alive and around to irritate you. it is not exactly a good start to 2010 but i am determined to make it right. although i am totally clueless how to go about doing it. right. enough about my emo-ing.

it's a mini tradition for me to recap on the things that i achieved in the past years. so yes i am going to do that for 2009 as well. (:

looking through my past entries i realised that it is really an eventful year for me. although some activities are not being recorded.. and yes i definitely GROW alot.. in terms of knowledge and skills... experiences alot and learnt alot.

and one of the best acheivement... i finally completed my studies!!! like after suffering for 3 years.. i'm finally free now. i'm so used to my busy life that i feel a sense of lost when i became less busy. now everyday was spent going out, shopping and hanging out with friends. not productive at all and i need to change that. on days when i get home earlier.. i have no idea what to do and ended up sleeping the whole night away. time to cultivate a hobby or learn a new skill or maybe even volunteer? always wanted to try volunteering at a hospice.. maybe i should start doing that too.

now at work... if you have been following my blog closely.. you should know how nervous i was for my workplace's 11th anniversary. my lovely boss put me in charge of the whole event when i'm still very new to the company.. lots of details to take note of and i'm someone that is not good with details at all. but i'm glad to have really supportive colleagues to help me through this and gave me advise and support me throughout the whole event. i'm glad that it went well and i must also thank my dearest guan yin and god for the awesome weather on that day. without the good weather.. no matter how well i plan it.. it will still not go through. my colleauge told me once you are in you .. YOU ARE IN. so i guess for 12th anniversary i need to start planning early unless something major happen to me if not im sure the arrow will still be shoooot over at my side. through this, i learnt the importance of team work and detailed planning. i cant possiblely achieved all these alone right?


as i spent more time with my residents at work.. i'm loving each and everyone of them more and more each day. their smiles and actions never fail to brighten up my boring day at work. i love how they greet me whenever they see me coming with their bright and cheery smile. it's indeed heartwarming to know that they are all starting to recognise you and accepting you. (:

i finally went on my first mission trip to myanmar (will blog about that soon). it was indeed an eye opener as i got to experience the simplicity of life... i went to give but ended up receiving even more from them. they taught me how to appreciate life as it is and be thankful for everything that i have now. through my interaction with them, i get to learnt about "the joy of giving" and they taught me how to stay happy no matter how bad the condition is. i'm definitely going for more mission trips in 2010 (hopefully if time permits). i really want to do more for them but i have my limitations too. sigh.


to all my buddies... thank you for staying on with me.. always being there for me when i need you. you know who you are :) i am looking forward to walk more years together with everyone of you. you did made a difference in my life. thank you for being part of me. :) i pray that 2010 will be a year filled with good news and happy memories for all of you. dont ever give up once you set your mind to something... be strong to fight away all obstacles to achieve what you want. and i know all these obstacles will only make you STRONGER AND BETTER. i will be here with you if you need me. and guess what? i can see you 2 years down the road wearing your graduation gown and throwing your mortar board high up into the sky!! yipee!! so no matter how hard it is now.. HANG ON!! and im sure you can do it and pick yourself up again. because you are not one who will give up easily right!! JIA YOOOU!!!

well.. it is not exactly a good start to 2010 but i believe that it will get better. there is alot of things that i have yet to do and yet to experience like falling madly deeply in love? hahaha. i pray that i will be strong enough to walk through this journey.

happy new year ziqi.
everything will be fine.
you will be okay!
be strong and smile. (:

signing off..

hello 2010

few more days and i'm going to bid goodbye to 2009; a year filled with changes, changes and more changes. i'm glad that i manage to go through all and never give up. great job ziqi! (:

and now i am really looking forward to the arrival of 2010....

because i know that it is definitely going to be an awesome year for me and my loves one filled with endless happy news and happy memories for all of us. (:

signing off
chloe lee :)

a typical conversation in a restaurant

client: Hi, can i check with you is this drink hot or cold? sweet or sour?
waiter: how would i know what it taste like when i never even taste it before?
client: OMG!!

hahahaha. really burst out laughing when my accountant shared with me what she experienced when she went to china for holiday...

the silly bird

spot the differences


and this is the original photo below


the silly bird did this.. seriously when i opened it i LOL and quickly show it to my other colleagues. we had a good time laughing at it.

according to him my boss look abit like his ex colleague..

ber..> says:
ur boss looks a bit like my ex colleague
ber..> says:
probably was him when he was young

waiting for boarding..

and after that back to singapore!!
oh man i miss my bed.
after being deprieved from computers for 8 days... YES I MISS THE INTERNET!!! ahhh.. am learning to survive without it though..

more updates when im back.. about the awesome trips and kids that i met when i'm in myanmar.. we are really such a lucky bunch. should learn to appreciate everything and be thankful for everything that we go.. but those kids got nothing but they are HAPPY!!

we got everything but we are still not contented...
*sigh*

signing off.
boarding the plane at 4:40 pm...

and i will be back to visit them next year... hopefully
because i'm already starting to misss all of them
all of them are really sweeeeet... :(

everything in life has an end.

yes, im closing another chapter of my life... :)

after 3 years of juggling both work and studies.. i am proud to announce that i finally completed my degree course. just attended my last lesson for the whole course.. boy im definitely going to miss those hectic days of mine.. weekend spent rushing for assignments, rushing off to school after work and burning midnight oil to prepare for exams.. and always asking the others before class "eh what to eat later arh?" going to miss our dinner gossips!!

(the place where we met, have fun and work hard together.. the place where all of us are working towards to acheive the same goal... the place where future counsellors/ social workers are born...)

i still remember how i felt on the day when i signed up for this course. very very HAPPY. why? i finally found the way to fulfill my goal in life. and because i also know that i am one step closer to my dream...

i'm a ITE graduate and all my buddies are either in poly or jc. but im the only poor soul that got into ITE. so imagine my sadnesss.. :P got to admit i feel kind of lost when i decided to join ITE. and it became worst after i graduate from ITE and nobody wants to employ me.. rejections by employers because of my age, qualification and lack of experiences... that's the society that we are living in. but i'm glad that someone decided to try me out and happy to say that my luck change from there onwards! hehe. all thanks to her! :)

and imagine my happiness when dad told me about this school that specialise in counselling.. signed up for it immediately and since then i'm hooked to it! (phew still cannot believe that i got my degree already..) and now 3 years everything has ended!! fast??

but if you asked me now.. did i regret joining ITE and waste my time there? my answer is no. because i went through the hard way in my studies..and it did changed me and i became more determined to get my degree. i try not to regret any decisions made as i believe that everything in life happened for a reason and there is a meaning and lesson attached to it. i lost some but i gain even more. i gain lots of experiences, learnt a great deal of things and met lots of wonderful people that help me along on my journey. all these are priceless. :)

i got to know this crazy funny twin sister! jeannie baby! someone who is able to crap with me and stand all my nonsenses. and our friendship grow stronger and stronger in the last 2 years.. what am i going to do without her in school? helping me with my assignments and always being so patient and nice.. entertaining me with all her jokes! ahh! im definitely going to miss hanging out with her...


i'm glad that for our last semester there isn't any exams and just purely based on assignments (as usual essays and reports). thus it's not too taxing.. and finally for once.. i managed to complete my assignments earlier! didnt really rush too hard for it. like wtf. i only managed to change until the last semester!! fine fine fine.. but at least i did change right? and it feels damn good when you didnt have to stay up all night trying to crap 2500 words within one day! hah! im definitely going to miss those crazy days..


*somehow it still feels like a dream to me that i'm a graduate now. i fcuking got my degree already!! yes i'm not dreaming... well done and great job ziqi!! you rocks! :)*

alright time to think of what i want to do for the next chapter of my life...

my first t shirt design

overdue reflection...

it was hard to kick start this planning as we haven't confirm the theme that we want to go for. beside that we have difficulties getting people to help us to come up with the design. approach a few nice people but what they came up with were not really suitable. after going one big round of asking friends, volunteers to help us design the logo for our 11th anniversary, we ended up using the design which i drew.... anyway thanks to the two design below i came up with something similar.. although not fantastic but at least boss agreed to it..




initially i refused to draw it myself as i the feeling when you draw until damn serious or what and they reject your design.. okay who likes rejection?? i hate it when you spend a lot time and effort to think and come up with something but in the end it got rejected.. ok lah i know all these are part of life experiences and i need to learn from it.. but im a lazy person unless im really in the mood to draw or do something.. i will do it nicely for you if not.. HAHAH. i need to change my character...

but anyhow.. in the end until the very last resort.. out of no choice.. i decided to draw it myself.. and thank god BOSS AGREED TO USE MY DESIGN!!! although he did rejected my first 2 proposal...

i got this inspiration from melvyn's design. anyway the 3 person are holding and supporting one and other. can you tell from the picture? (and boss find this too childish!)

try the design out with a heart shape... (still childish...)

replace the 3 figures with a hand holding together (so i modify abit and came up with this.. as we walk hand in hand together.... while drawing this, it reminds me of those days when im struggling to complete my portfolio.)

and TADAH!! got it printed out on the T SHIRTS!!! (:

so there goes my first ever t shirt that i designed! glad that i manage to churn something out at the last min... and once again it's proven that my brain only works at the very last min! HAHAHA

after 3 years of suffering...

i'm graduating this thursday!!!
happy happy HAPPY!!
and now finishing up my last assignment and i will be FREEEE woooo
i cant wait..
going to take a break for a while
and then think about what i want to do in 2010.

i'm thinking if i should continue my studies and get my master? feel like BUT im tired of the process of rushing for deadlines and rushing to school after work. tsk tsk tsk..

ahhh. worry about that later! finish up my last assignment first! one more question to goo!!

tsk tsk tsk.. parents..

i had one group of primary 4 kids coming over to do volunteer work earlier.. as they are really young and it's their first time volunteering, the kids were unsure what to do. and some of them shared that they are actually afraid of my client. okay this is normal.. anyway i am really proud of them. they did a great job interacting and having fun with my clients. after the session, while having a debriefing session, all of them wants to come back and volunteer again. so i told them to seek their parents consent first and ask them to bring them here the next time.

and one student commented that

"miss chloe, my mother will not bring me here one. because she thinks that they are crazy people."

alright well done mother! for sharing the WRONG information to a child. call yourself a mother.. tsk tsk tsk.. they are mentally SLOWER and not mentally CRAZY! it's a very BIG differences okay. even though they are special but they are also humans like us with feelings and they do need people to love and care for them just like everyone of us.

how are we going to include them in our society if people are not being educate correctly about them? and it really pissed me off to see them spreading the wrong information about them. a lot of time when people heard that we are a intellectually disabled home, they started to panic and withdraw. i totally understand how it feels.. it's normal to feel afraid.. i'm afraid too when i first join them. but you should GIVE THEM A CHANCE to work with you first instead of rejecting them directly just because they are intellectually disabled. if you are not willing to give it a try and work with them then how are you going to accept them and understand them better?

we really want to include them in our community and let them live together with us. it is neither their fault nor their parents' fault that they are born differently from us. so why should we ostracize them?

everyone deserves a second chance. and yes they too deserve a chance to live together with us in the community. so please please please.. don't label them.. criticise them.

instead accept, respect and include them.

okay just feel like ranting.......

say hello to BOBBY!

he is bobby. so what is so special about him? well basically he is the FIRST dog that i ever kiss! haha and beside that.. he is the first dog that i'm not afraid of. first that i dare to carry.. okay yes. i'm scare of dogs! blame it on a bad experience when i was just a little girl. i fucking got chase by a dog.. well maybe it's because we were really mischievous at that time so the owner decided to take revenge on us by letting his dog chase us and the innocent me was too young to know how to react! so.. you know.. haha.. those days... and dogs are always so aggressive when i see them. especially pauline's dog. always hump my leg super horny!

but bobby is really different. he is a sweeet little darling. he dont bark that often, he dont bite, and he is really cute. always wanting you to touch him.. sweeet right! haha

and good news is im learning how to love them now and less afraid of them.. im still trying yes.. give me sometime and i will succeed! YES!

ahh!

shit. think i kanna food poisoning or what. been visiting the toilet and LS-ing for the past 2 days. quite a few times i woke up in the middle of the night because of tummy ache and got to rush to the toilet. damn. very disruptive you know. basically i shit out everything that i ate. anyway if you look it from another side.. it's a good detox session isn't it? maybe after this i might get to lose 100000000kg? i hope so.. hahahah.

so wtf did i ate?

okay admit im here to show off! HAHAHA

was very very shock when i checked my result. i got 51/60!! hahahaha! pleasant surprise for last semester! i think it's the first time that i score that high.. im the kind that pass is good enough for me. so imagine my shockNESS when i checked my result that day! wooooooo

thank you!!! really make my day lah!

yes chris fong rocks lah!

又下雨了。
我的心也跟着它一起下。

HAHAHAHA

me: im going to junction 8 anybody want anything??
account: YES!!!
me: but i'm not going to buy for you.. NO NO!! LA LA LA LA!!

im not evil. really not evil but very nice...

oldies but goodies.