:'(

grandma dearest left us.

finally went up to grandma dearest's house earlier today after she left us. it's the first time when i'm there and she's not around. it feels so weird when i opened the door to her house.

the table that is always filled with yummy foods is now empty. yes things are never going to be the same again. i am so used to her presence in the house that it feels weird without her by my side.

it came so sudden that when it happened i dont even know what to do. i even tried my best to delay myself from attending her funeral on the first day. unfilial granddaughter. (i'm sorry grandma dearest. i simply cant accept the fact that you are gone.)

i sat in the kitchen and looked around (it's her territory!) .. trying my best to remember every single details that i see. and i thought i saw her standing there.. smiling at me..

tears started flowing when it finally hit me that she is gone forever. it seems only yesterday when we were still joking and talking to her in the kitchen. but now she's gone to a faraway land.

grandma dearest,

are you adapting well over there? i really hope so. but not us because we are still trying to come to term with your sudden departure. but dont worry about us. we will be fine. :) well i'm sure you are now having a happy reunion with grandpa dearest, third aunt and fourth aunt. :P

things are going to be different from now onwards but dont worry. we will cope and go through it all.

till we meet again grandma dearest.
i miss you so so sooo much.
there are lots of things that i have yet to tell/ do/ show you.
and you left me.

i pray that you are happy wherever you are now.

always in my heart,
ah girl.