Rose

finally no more sunflowers!

my first attempt to paint a rose. HOW NICE NOT?

I love love love to receive cards! <3

turning 25.

spent my birthday visiting singapore flyer with mum and dad, followed by dinner at kushin bo. had a great time at flyer laughing at my dad silly attempts to create whacky face while taking pictures. and now i finally know where i got all my nonsense from! 

as you grow older, you tend to prefer simple and quiet celebration like this. :)

Continue: 25 things i'm thankful for

Thank you big booobies for finishing the list for me. Was alone in train and smiling non stop while reading what she wrote. Awwwww.

19. Good complexion and big eyes
20. Good contagious laughter
21. Good height (for walking thru a tunnel #likeaboss and for certain sports where ur height is considered best, like basketball/netball Centers)
22. Being born in sunny and safe Singapore
23. Having gone Korea before and then falling in love with that place
24. Being chubby and yet still pretty (DAMN YOUUU)
25. Last but not least, thankful you have a name that sounds like music to the ears and fits you!
姿 = 面貌
淇 = 水, so you have a watery look which, in other words, means your face is flowing with love

"HAHAHA THERE I COMPLETED IT FOR U! ❤" Sabrina CHEN.

25 things that i'm thankful for

i am officially 25 today. one quarter of my life gone that's provided if i really live till 100.
anyway like what the blog post says, i'm going to try listing down 25 things that i am thankful for. (i hope i can really think of 25)

1 - my mum.

no words can describe how much thankful i am towards her. my mum who selflessly gave everything to us, who provide everything for us without any complains, who tolerate all my nonsense, who make sure i have a home to go back to at the end of the day, who make sure that i will never go hungry, who make sure that i have a clean and comfortable place to stay in and many many more. without her, i wont be here sitting comfortably typing out this. thank you mum i love you.

2 - my dad

just like my mum i thank him for tolerating all my nonsenses and stubbornness. with him around providing for the family, i can go ahead and pursue my dreams without any worry. i can do things which many of my peers are not able to. thank you for giving me a happy family, a happy childhood. thank you for loving my mum.

3 - my job

with a job, i have money coming in. with money i can go ahead to plan for travels and buy as many things as i like. i am happy to be employed and doing something which i enjoy and love.

4 - my boss

without my boss giving me all these opportunities, i wont be who i am today. thank you for believing in me and giving me lots of opportunities to prove myself. thank you for nurturing me to become who i am today. seriously it's because of him believing in me, i didnt realise that i can actually lead and be a leader.

5 - my colleagues

i always hear of stories how colleagues plot against one another, how they backstab you. i guess being in a small and family organisation you wont face such issues. my colleagues are like my friends, my family. i'm glad that im able to bond with them and they even treat me like their own daughter.

6 - health

after working in this industry for 4 years, one of the most important thing beside family is health. no matter how rich you are, if you are not healthy then it's useless. i have seen how a illness change a whole family. i am thankful that i am born healthy and my families are healthy. please continue to bless us with great health and happiness.

7 - my dog

my best friend. it's always a joy to come home with someone jumping with joy whenever they see you. thank you for keeping me companying.


8 - my residents at work

for teaching me a lot of life lessons and making me believe that happiness can be that simple. thank you for teaching me the joy of giving. thank you for teaching me how to love a complete stranger. thank you for always brightening up my day with your smile when i'm tired and lost. thank you treating me like family.

9 - girlfriends of 10 years and more

im so glad that we are still stuck together now even after we graduated with everyone of us pursuing different dreams. thank you for leaving deeeep foot prints in my life and again tolerating all my nonsenses. thank you for always being there when i needed someone.

10 - my cousins

the people that i grew up with. the people that will never ever leave me no matter what. the people that will always be there. thank you.

11 - volunteer turn friend

i know i can always count on you when i need help for any event. thank you for always offering your help readily and thank you for being a friend to my residents.

12 - uni mates

it's really different when you whine to friends who understand what you are going through at work. i guess because we are all facing the same shit everyday? HAHA. thank you for listening to me and making me feel better. thank you for letting me know that im not alone.

13 - the la liang group

no idea how we ended up together but i seriously enjoy every meetup with all of you. all the endless laughters and jokes are what i need most. thank you for always bringing endless laughter into my life and not forgetting the non stop entertainment on whatsapp tooooo!

14 -  my iphone

for keeping me entertained and providing me with latest updates about news and my friends! yes i do stalk people when i have nothing to do. HAHAHA.

15 - home

that i have a place to go back to at the end of the day. my own room for me to hide away from the rest of the world. the place where i can take down my mask and just be the real me. a place where i can recharge before i face the world again.

16 - my ITE mates

they made my life in ITE so much fun. so much bearable. being the only one going to ITE among all my other gfs, it's hard not to be saaaaaad. haha anyhow it's over and i have move and preserve on with my life. i guess the greatest take over from my ITE is knowing them. :)

17 - my little corner at work

the place where i sloooooooog hard. the place where i can decorate and paste random shitsss! HAHAH. glad to have one place that i can call my own.

18 - ex colleague turn 'lover'

she treats me like her little sister. (:

i'm so depress that i'm going to stop at 18. CANNOT THINK OF ANYTHING ELSE TO ADDD ON. OMG OMG OMG. HOW CAN THAT BE POSSIBLEEEEEEEEEEE. :(

MY FINAL WEEK A WORK BEFORE I GO FOR MY TWO MONTHS VOLUNTEER TRIP!!!! OMGGGGGGGODOOO.

Tuesday Food for thought!

Counting down to 27!

Most creative birthday treat invitation goes toooooo...

And yes I really thought it's an advertisement and nearly deleted it without reading! Nice one! Hahaha!

an interview in chinese!

agreed to help one of my volunteer with her final year assignment, so she did an interview with me about my work here in bishan home. no i didn't type all these, i replied all to her in english and she translated into chinese by herself. PRO RIGHT. first draft below! :)

标题：与李资淇小姐的访谈 对于智障人士的看法
访问对象：李资淇小姐，任职为碧山智障之家的社工与义工管理执行
地点：碧山智障之家
记者：谢佩玲，任为碧山智障之家的义工


    不了解智障人士的人很多时候都会对他们指指点点，窃窃私语。你，是其中一位吗？
任职为碧山智障之家的社工与义工管理执行的李资淇小姐认真地向我解释： “很多人不理解的是，弱智者的举动都是有原理的。每个人都有自己发泄情绪的管道。而他们只不过是因为生理因素，例如缺乏控制情绪反应的感官，从而无法像一般人能够直接表达情感，所以才会通过大叫或敲打的行为来抒发内心的感受。”

    的 确，我刚到碧山智障之家做义工时，我发现居住在那里的智障人士对于控制自己的行为举止这方面是有一定的难度的。这点让我感到有一点畏惧，不太敢跟他们接触。然而，他们亲切的笑脸和热情的招待把我彻底融化。我渐渐察觉到他们和一般人没什么两样，只要多花时间与他们相处，你就会发现他们很简单也很可爱！而他们也想要得到的也只不过是 多一点关怀与陪伴，就是那么简单。


家，原来是个遥远的梦想

    “回家对大多数人来说并不陌生。但对碧山智障之家的居民来说，这似乎是个遥不可及的梦。从他们身上，我学会了如何爱惜我的家人和朋友。有时候，我们可能会把家人
对我们的关心视为理所当然，为了芝麻绿豆的小事与他们争吵或者常常外出及晚回家。可是，有些人却渴望能够天天与家人相伴，但却没有这个机会。”

    李小姐的这番感言让我不禁想起去年的圣诞节庆。当我缓缓走进碧山智障之家时，我看到一个熟悉的面孔痴痴地坐在门口等着。我走向他，问他怎么了，只听见他说：“姐姐，我的妈妈什么时候才会来带我回家? 今天是圣诞节。” 我的心突然沉了下去。一个看似单纯单的问题，我却无言以对。这时，我领悟到了我们每个星期六的探访或许对我们来说只不过是两个小时的陪伴，但对他们来说，这或许是他们期待以久的欢乐时光。


摘下你的有色眼镜吧

    李资淇小姐从事在碧山智障之家的工作也已迈入第四年，因此她也就自然比众人更了解智障人士的生活点滴。从李小姐身上，我们可以了解到很多我们外人有所不知的辛酸故事。当我访问她是否曾经碰到有人对弱智者不礼貌或不谅解的情况时，平时活泼开朗的她瞬间严肃起来。

    ”我总是听到很多关于智障人士负面的消息。例如：不了解智障人士的人时常会对他们产生偏见。有些对他们有成见的人还向他们使眼色，甚至为他们取难听的绰号。还有，一个再普遍不过的错误观念就是将弱智和精神病混为一谈。人们需要了解的是，智障人士的行为举止背后都是有合理的解释的。而且，每个人表达情感的方式也都不一样，就算是一般人都可能会有情绪失控的时候。不仅如此，或许他们的学习步调比较慢，但这并不代表他们没有学习能力。虽然不容易，可是他们已经很努力地在尝试融入我们的社会。下一次，当你想要对他们发脾气或使眼色时，请你想像一下如果你是他，你会怎样想？”

    不懂得像一般人抒发自己的情感，并不代表一个人没有感觉。很多时候，智障人士或许无法清楚表达自己的感想或情绪，但这并不意味着他没有思考能力或是没有感触。人们的一言一语，他们有可能看得比我们都清楚。

    “除此之外，有些人也因为受不了智障人士的大声扰攘而选择报警。改天当你打算报警时，请你想一想他们的家人或护理人员的无奈。很多事并不在我们能控制的范围内。而且，智障人士们也只不过是拥有着较为非一般的身体缺陷。我们绝对不能因此而对他们有所成见。反而，只要我们愿意花多一点时间去了解他们，就会发现他们的特别之处！”

    种种的误会和不了解让智障人士难以被现实社会接受。我们需要明白的是，他们无法选择或控制自己的行为与动作。所以，与其责怪或耻笑他们，也许我们可以探讨要如何扶持和接受他们，或是和亲友分享对智障人士的知识，消除人们对他们的错误观念。

    在访问李资淇小姐的当儿，我深深地感受到她的工作的热忱。我很好奇到底是什么原因让她想要延续在碧山智障之家的工作？据了解，今年已经是她在碧山智障之家任职的第四年了！

    “每当他们用笑脸来迎接我，我也会跟着笑不容嘴！当他们叫我的名字而不是只是称呼我为姐姐时，我更是乐开了怀！还有有些时候，当他们握住我的手或给我一个暖乎乎的拥抱时，我可以体会到他们已把我当成家人看待，亲切的举动也表达了他们对我的信任。他们很简单，对任何人都满怀真诚的爱护与关怀。就是这些点点滴滴让我有继续坚守岗位的动力。我要竭尽所能，提高人们对他们的知识，让人们多了解他们并不奇异，而是特别。他们的才能正等着我们去挖掘。他们也正在努力地尝试融入当地社会！”

    一个简单的拥抱和微笑就能让我们重拾热情。一位年轻女子，用她的轻巧的双手捧着一颗善良的心，为社会无私地奉献。在许多人忙碌于努力赚钱，迈向富裕人生的途中，她努力不懈地想办法如何能够让智障人士过更舒适的生活，而且也很欣慰自己能够从中得到很多金钱所买不到的宝贵经验与知识。

    “我觉得人活着就只有这么一次，想要做什么就应该勇往直前！做人最重要是要对自己有个交代。我们要坚持自己的信念，不可以轻易退缩！我很开心能够做我想要做的工作。我也希望大家可以给智障人士一个机会，好好地去欣赏他们。”

   没错。既然我们无法改变人体基因，我们或许可以试着去了解智障人士行为举止的原理、消除对他们的偏见、敞开胸怀接受他们的缺憾。难道一般人就没有缺点吗？而且，虽然他们的智商比较低，可是他们都是有学习能力的。在碧山智障之家，居民都学会做家务、煮菜、烘焙、种植蔬菜等等的技术。唱歌跳舞也是他们最爱的消遣活动。他们与你我没什么两样。智障人士只不过是需要多一点耐性和关怀。让我们一同并肩作战，增强人们对他们的意识，帮助他们融入社会吧！而最简单的方式，不就只是一个温暖的微笑？

:O :X :D :P

可惜不是你-曹轩宾

ok i'm in love.
always in love with guys who play piano and wtf this one play with WHITE PIANO? melt until bo chun!

i really love his version of 可惜不是你. having goosebumps, listening to it over and over again. awesome and talented.

努力為你改變 卻變不了 預留的伏線
以為在你身邊 那也算永遠 彷彿還是昨天
可是昨天 已非常遙遠 但閉上我雙眼 我還看得見


可惜不是你 陪我到最後 曾一起走卻走失那路口
感謝那是你 牽過我的手 還能感受那溫柔
感謝那是你 牽過我的手 還能溫暖我胸口

double s's wedding!

the first to get married among my ITE buddies, and yes we were all shock when she announced her wedding. OMG, SERENE IS GETTING MARRIEDDD.

she met her husband after we graduated from ITE and yes stuck with him till now. how sweet right! first boyfriend and turn husband. 123 AWWWWWWWWWW!! <3

My best talk cock sing song buddy in ITE. ahh those incredibly shit days. but thank god they made it less shitty. :)

the dude who sat beside me that night! and again sharing all sorts of nonsense with him.  

6 years back. (yayaya i look like crap last time)

and NOW. 我们长大了！！glad to meet up and catch up with everyone again. JQ was missing in this picture and yes NICHOLAS FINALLY GET TO SEE HIM AFTER 123456YEARS! always not turning up for our gathering and glad he did made it for serene's wedding. :)

isn't it scary how time flies by?

again a reminder to self to always cherish every moment and count all my blessings. DO WHAT I WANT TO DO. i dont want to miss anything again and regret it years later. (:

ke kiang go change my blog layout and now lost all information, links at my sidebar.
simisai. CUI :(

but thank god my little doggy face is still there!

HEYHIHELLO Monday!

yes it's 4th June 2012 monday agaaaaaaain. one month from now i will be in chiangmai! yes FINALLY booked my air ticket for my month long volunteer trip. i will be gone for two months. spending 1.5 months in chiangmai and a week plus from 19th august onwards in nia, indonesia. spent all salary on air tickets this month. broke and shall eat grass for the rest of the month. money come to mama please.

technically one month left in singapore before i disappeared for 2 months. so many things to clear for work before i chao. and i'm so happy that my ex colleague agreed to come back and cover for me when im away. so i can leave without any worrriesssss. :):)

im so excited. very excited. oh ya I NEED TO GET MY VISA!! if not GG.

4th July please come fast.