30th October 2011
幸福的女人！

Gf that I knew when working in Fujitsu. No idea how we ended up together as very good buddies because we are not in the same department but I'm really happy that it happened. (:

Congrats to you for finding someone who loves you more than anything else in this world. :D

GF

More than 10 years of friendship and counting.

Our first group photos after so long! And I can already picture us 10 years later posing for the same photo but surrounded by our children and husband! Hehe. people that I will definitely love to grow old with. (:

Can life/ human/ things not be that complicated like this?

Gf time

Halloween special at Giant.
Always end up doing silly things when we are together.

new look!

yay or naaah?

she will never let me read my book in peace!

My volunteer damn cute gave this to me and he says "miss chloe for you to drink together with your boyfriend." and I told him "no boyfriend! But I will take this drink and find one boyfriend to drink with me!" Hahaha.

Enjoying all my little encounters with my volunteers.

little bundle of joy

i need to have more happy post so i shall post pictures of ..... my dog!
Y U SO CUTE?

peek a boo before bedtime!

and she love to snuggle in my leg when i'm sitting down. sweet

spent most of my 3/4 of my leave with her at home lazing around, reading a book, watching drama, day dreaming, thinking ....

had a good break i guess. but it was over too fast.. toooo fast..

p.s. i will be fine soon.

give thanks

"alone we can do so little, together we can do so much"

i couldnt have done it without all these people supporting me in various way.
thank you :)

HELP ME.

Distraction, distraction, distraction and lots of distraction. That's what I need now.

Old school snacks

Snacks I love to eat when I was a little girl. Bought it that day when I passed by the mama shop at my old estate. After so many years, it's still there although it's a different owner now. Nostalgic much

Choki choki and satay snacks!

Little bun's stories

Sleeping soundly like a little baby.
Sweet. No doubt she is my world now. (:

Courage.

Hidden message found in a iPhone cover.

Have Courage: A little reminder for me and you to be brave, persevere on and fight for what you want.

It's O.V.E.R! Officially a very free woman now! Hehe.

Whole event went well.. I think. No major screw up. HENG AHHH! and one guest was telling me "I like the whole atmosphere you guys created. Very lively and happy. Well done!" WOOOTS! :D

and my leaves starts N.O.W. not going anywhere.. just everyday nua, nua and nua non stop at home or anywhere! HAHAHAHA!

And a big thank you to my awesome volunteers for coming down the night before to help out with decoration and stuffs straight after school. aww.. (:

LGS! thank you for staying late with me. :)

"Of all goodbyes, the kind that which hurt the most was the one your ears never heard of, yet your heart knew it's already been said.”

Believe that they can too!

I was thinking of getting a special gift for GOH for my event. Decided to approach one resident to help as he took up mouth painting recently.

Both of us were quite skeptical at first because I'm not confident if I'm able to guide him well and it is also his first time doing an actual painting. Myself too.. Colleagues were asking "you sure he can?" and I replied "of course!"

Anyhow despite everything I decided to go ahead and try. Doesn't matter if it didn't turn out well but at least we tried.

And glad i press on. end result was awesome. Everyone was praising our sunflower!! :D HAPPY!

Again, It's important for us to look at their abilities and believe that yes they can too!

Breakfast and lunch.
1 day left.
Too fast, too fast.

My friends are awesome.

I'm thankful for friends who are trying all ways and means to make me better when they know I feel like shit and stress like a banana. Blessed indeed. (:

i will survive.
after 15th october everything will be fine and i will be fine too.
i hope.

''Best friends listen to what you don't say."

"The first person who's on your mind the moment you open your eyes after a long sleep is the reason of either your happiness or your pain.”

Pain...

emo much

feeling really miserable now. and it's only 3 days left to my event, why did i choose to do it now when i should be concentrating and focusing on that.

it takes me a lot of courage before i even decided to do that. no wait. i dont event know where did my courage come from. friends are shock when they knew about it.. myself too. and some are happy that i did it. but wtf? i dont know how to describe my feeling now anyway.. and i had no idea why i did what i did. maybe it's bothering me for too long and i just want to know what's going on... what are you thinking. everything happened too sudden and i was not prepared for it. oh well..

there are things which i regretted saying and i know it's too late to salvage or what.. i dont know what's going on my mind when i sent that, or i was not even thinking straight. maybe what i want is some assurance from you.. maybe... if only there is an option for us to unsent what we sent. if only...

i dont know what i want now.. or how should i continue from here. i guess i should just leave things as it is now..

"The worst feeling is when someone makes you feel special, then suddenly leaves you hanging, and you have to act like you don't care at all.”

bowling at safra

Saturday morning was spent at bowling ally with my residents and volunteers from PSA POU club.

No, I didn't play at all but I had lots of fun too. All my time was spent looking at their happy faces when they managed to throw the heavy ball. All their different patterns when they bowled.. Hehe. It was quite an experience for most of them.

It doesn't matter if they didn't manage to hit any pins. What matter most, giving them the chance to try and prove to others that they can too. To always look at their abilities and not disabilities. That they too have the right to be included as part of the community too.

And of course the companies and warm encouragements given by the volunteers play a part too. My residents had lots of fun and they were laughing/ smiling non stop throughout the whole session.

Thank you for showing love to our residents.

Bowling can be really fun too even if you are not playing. Step out of your comfort zone and make a differences in someone's life today.

Prawn aglio olio

On a random Sunday afternoon, I decided to cook.

Verdict 10/10 (because I need to support my own creation! HAHAHA)

Buddddddy

that's what best friends are for...
for you to laugh at one and another misfortune HAHAHAHHA!

Little Maltese

I have the cutest and cleverest dog that will go wake my mum up when she knows that I'm stuck outside the door, without a key to come in late at night. Happened not once but twice. how can I not love her? <3

Maybe I should stop doing that. Maybe...

3rd year and still going strong.

did a yearly reflection

that was what i wrote in 2009
http://averysillywoman.blogspot.com/2009/10/exactly-1-year.html
2010
http://averysillywoman.blogspot.com/2010/10/2-years.html

and now 2011, my 3rd year with them! :)

today marks my 3rd year anniversary with Bishan Home. (this is now officially one of my longest job!) I often thought of moving on to other sector, working with a different group of people but somehow i'm still here. friends are always asking me "when are you moving on? we are waiting for you!" yes it's definitely not easy to leave at least for me, after all my residents are my family now after 3 years with them. do you ever leave your family behind? but of course i know when it's time to go, i have to go. so now i will still continue working hard for them. :)

through my journey with BH, i'm really thankful to meet friends/ volunteers/ partners who are really supportive of what i'm doing and always ready to learn a helping hand whenever i need it. i know i can always count on them. they bring hope not only to my residents but me too. thank you and i trust our friendship will not end here. <3

and of course i have to thank both my bosses for giving me lots of opportunities to perform and nurturing me to become who i am. it's because of you believing in me that i can achieve all i have today. i did so many things that i never knew i'm capable of achieving, i overcome my stage fright to give speeches, you put me in charge of important event and trust that i will not screw up. thank you for always believing in me and you make me believe in myself too.

when the going gets tough... i'm finding it increasingly hard to continue with all the increased responsibilities, things and people that i have to deal with. i'm starting to feel tired of everything that i'm doing and sometimes not giving my best too. guilty. i know it's not a good sign to be feeling this way and again i need to learn to handle and overcome this by myself. i need to find my way back.

not having an easy time but i'm not giving up.

one volunteer sent this to me. thank you, i will hang on! :)

working in this industry,i get to see many different sides of human. people who are capable of showering love to a complete stranger, people who are still not willing to accept them as who they are and judge them base on their disability. it hurts to see people reacting strongly to them, avoiding them and even making rude remarks about them.

often i get questions like "why are you doing what you are doing?" "isnt it sad to work with them?"

after working with my residents, i'm more aware of the difficulties faced by them and their families. it's sad that people are still not willing to include them as part of the community, not willing to step into their world to understand them. i'm always hearing stories about the terrible things the people are doing to them like showing disgusted look when they see them. sigh, the world will be a better place to stay in if everyone can be more understanding and tolerance towards one and another.

so everyday i'm telling myself, i want to create more awareness for them. to share my stories with all my volunteers/ friends and hopefully through me and my little stories they are able to see another side of them. but of course i know at the end of the day, it's best for them to come and experience it themselves, to create their own stories.

i have learnt so much from my residents. every moment spent with them is a moment i treasure. they taught me valuable lessons that i can never learn in school. most importantly, they taught me about love and acceptance.

"For I'm one of the children, so special and few, that came here to learn, the same lessons as you. that love is acceptance."

looking at their happy faces every time when they see me makes me happy and that's what keeps me going every day. the warm smile on their faces never fails to make me feel better after a long day at work. and i often caught myself smiling to myself thinking about all my random encounter/ conversation with them. trust me, they are really loveable. :)

Saturday night drinking wine under the block.
Chillax-ing the banglah style. Niceeeee