5 mins of fame

i waited for years and came a long way just for this day...
a chance to put on the mortar board and graduation gown...
that moment of glory when we received our cert from the school chancellor...

and tadaah! this is my cert! :D

from a girl who flunk her o level and out of desperation and lost she applied for ITE...
to this very day when she finally graduated with a degree!
damn it's definitely not an easy journey for someone like me who sucks with her studies...
but anyhow i'm glad i did it and it's over now! :D

group pictures with fella mates!

and the traditional mortar board throwing ceremony! almost got hit a few times! HAHAHA

with my crazy and fun bo ling - ms jeannnie!
knowing her is one of best thing that happened to me during the entire course... (:
yay! we did it babe!!
cheers to our new life!!! :D

and with mummy sharon! wheeee
another babe i know during my course!

oh! read read read! i wrote this entry on my last day of schoool!

everything in life has an end

and yes.. i closed another chapter of my life..
time to venture out and create another exciting chapter! (:

just hold on and work hard towards your dream and it will come true.
and i did it!
so can you (:

Mission trip to Myanmar - Mon State

*overdue reflection.. i went to myanmar in november 09!

it's indeed an eye opener for me as i went on my first mission trip to myanmar - Seik Phu Taung Youth Development Centre with a few strangers. but anyhow we became good friends after the trip.. (: i always wanted to go for one but i fear that i might not be able to take it as i'm very particular about TOILETS and those disgusting insects... anyway i'm glad that i manage to overcome my fear and embark on my first mission trip! woo.. when i was in myanmar.. i told myself "heck laaah. since i want to go, i shouldnt be afraid about this and that anymore..." very brave right?? hahah i know i know... :P



it took us 4 - 5 hours to travel from the city (yangon) to the village (mon state). so naturally i spent my entire trip SLEEPING! that was the best activity that i can think of. hahaha. if not what you suggest?


it was kind of awkward when we reached the orphanage.. the volunteers were standing one side and the children were standing at the other side. no one move but i can see all of them looking at us curiously... at that moment.. i am able to relate to how my volunteers felt when they met my residents for the first time.. unsure what to do and how to approach them... i was contemplating within myself "should i go over and say hi to them? or should i just stand here and wait?" wait for what? i dont know..

the one and only nicer looking classroom!

their dining area.. and there are lots of hungry dogs fighting for food.. it's kinda scary to hear the dogs growling and fighting whenever they spotted any food.

anyhow, i made the first move. went over and greet them.. and naturally the rest followed behind me.. yes.. we became 'buddy' immediately.

the kids were really happy to see us and always greet us with their bright and cheerful smiles. every morning when i went downstairs, i will see them waiting anxiously for us to come down and play with them.

(oh they love taking photographs!!)


and that's my nest for the whole trip! and glad i bought my mini pillow along!


on my first morning, as we have some leftover paint i started painting on them yes.. literally painting on their faces and hands! hahaha. everyone was waiting eagerly for their chance to be painted! hahaha. all the laughter when their friends saw their own masterpiece' on their friends.. all this little interaction and activities can make them really happy and excited even though it's just painting on their faces.

we had so much fun doing that!

every morning you will see a group of children with their big and cheerful smile waiting for you to wake up and have fun with them. and whenever they see you, they will quickly run towards you and shower you with lots of love! clinging on to you, calling your name and trying to talk to you in english (very limited words that they learnt but still can see them trying their best to talk to me)

the older ones are in school... so the younger ones are those stayed behind during the day.

at night when the older ones are back, we will have our nightly gathering mainly chatting and occasionally playing games.. we had so much fun teasing one another.. and once i even joined them for their night class.. they were so excited and took great care of me, lending me their textbooks and pointing out to me what their teacher is teaching..

and majority of them did really well in their studies.. scoring at least 90 and above. im impressed. :)

ocassionally we taught them simple children songs and you can see all their happy faces waiting eagerly to learn..

on our last night, they had a mini celebration for us. they put up performances and we planned games for them..

group pic with part of them on the last night. :(
going to miss them..

part of the group that i went with...

and one of the boy even wrote a note to me..


the few days there was tiring but really fun.
everything was really back to basic... no facebook, no handphone, no twitter!
i learned that i can survive without laptop, handphone and aircon.
and we did alot of running around (catching and badminton all day all night long! good exercise!)

i did things that i never thought i'm capable of.
i went to give, but ended up receiving even more from them.
through them, i get to learn the 'joy of giving'
and they taught me to stay positive and happy no matter how bad the condition is.
they reminded me to be thankful and appreciate what i have now..
and not take things for granted.

and im impress with their willingness to learn, help and take care of one another.
children as young as 8 or 10 are taking care of infants.
and they are really independent. of course i understand given the circumstances that they are in, they have no choice but to be independent...

unlike the kids in singapore who are definitely way fortunate than them..
who spend their day playing computer games and bugging their parents to buy new toys for them..
and complain when you ask them to help out...

anyway it was a GREAT experience!
and yes.. definitely will be back to visit them this year.
if only i can make this as my full time job..... (:

23!

and im one year older today..
time flies and im now23. goodness. getting old old old... and soon i will be turning in to one old fart. :(

30 seems so near yet so far. so many things yet to achieve. i think it's time for me to list down all my plans and achieve them soon. hopefully if everything goes well i can start next year. dont wanna waste away my life.

blessed birthday ziqi.
this is going to be an awesome 23 for you. :D i hope so.

k - only human

im seriously neglecting my blog for the LONGEST TIME!

anyway... i happened to see this video and am totally mesmerized by him! and yes i seriously have a soft spot for guys who play the piano.. and will literally melt when i see them play! x_x

*i will die on the spot if im that girl sitting there looking at him play!!!! HAHAHAHAHA



okay anyway. i know this is a very random post. bye

champion for a day

last year a few of my residents participated in special olympics 2009 and they did us proud by winning back some medals for us. (:

and this year we got invited to join KCPPS in their annual sport's day. they even invited a few of my residents to participate in a simple race (60m).

it was a first time for a few residents who didnt get a chance (for various reasons) to participate in special O. and i'm sure it's also an unforgettable day for them. (:


i'm very thankful to have volunteers like them who remembered to show care and concern for the less fortunate. whom like us, are working hard to make their life as enriching and interesting as possible.

i really appreciate the kind thoughts they put in preparing the medals and trophy for my clients. i can never forget the look on their faces when they crossed the finishing lines and waited eagarly to collect their medals. that moment of happiness in them..

we decided to put this particular resident in even though he cant run fast. what motivated us to select him is his "never give up's attitude". yes, he cant run fast and even came in last but he perserve till the end and never give up! i'm really proud of him. you should see his happy and cheerful face when he finished the race. it doesnt matter to him that he came in last.. what matter most is HE COMPLETED THE RACE despite the difficulties he faced base on his own abilities. and this is something that we should learn from him. never give up.. never say die.. despite how bad the situation is. perserve on and you will be greeted with a beautiful rainbow after the rain.

the champions in my heart! (:


oh.. im honoured to be given the opportunity to give out medals/ trophy to the students. my first time and it's an incredible experience! hahaa. never will i dream of being treated like a 'VIP' for that day. hahaha. thank you for giving me this opportunity to share the joy with the winners! (:

they really felt like champion for a day, which makes them proud and happy.
thank you for bringing joy into their life and gave them an unforgettable experiences. (:

有一點動心

老歌还是最好听！这首歌说出了我现在的想法。

我對你有一點動心
卻如此害怕看妳的眼睛
有那麼一點點動心　一點點遲疑
不敢相信我的情不自禁

我對你有一點動心
不知結果是悲傷還是喜
有那麼一點點動心　一點點遲疑
害怕愛過以後還要失去

high up the sky!

second time up singapore flyer in a month!
first was with melvyn when i joined him for his event
and now second time with my dearest colleagues..

and i still remembered how excited was I on the very first time when melvyn told me that we are going up the flyer!! excited until i cannot sleep and when i step on the flyer i actually lao bak sai!! hahaha JUST KIDDING!

but once i went up the flyer.. i realise that it's actually nothing.. like just sitting or standing there and looking at the not that fantastic scenery..

but what cracks me up is.... "MELVYN IS ACTUALLY SCARE OF HEIGHT!! HAHAHAHAHA" he was kind of panicking when we went higher and higher... but got to salute him... scare of height but he still went ahead!

even though he look kind of okay.... but he is actually panicking inside!! hahahaha

and look he is holding the pole until damn tight! hahaha

but glad he didnt faint during the ride! if not.... HAHAHAHAHA *cannot imagine*

anyway.. i guess i wont be going up there for the time being.. it's really nothing fantastic up there. wonder what's all the raves about! hmm....

twitter!

and yes i fall into iPhone's trap and naturally i got hooked onto twitter too.
it's way much easier to update my random thoughts!
so guess there might be a possibility that i will start neglecting my blog. :(

but anyway.. follow me on twitter now at

http://twitter.com/averysillywoman

i seriously cant stop twitting!!! muahahahaha

:'(

grandma dearest left us.

finally went up to grandma dearest's house earlier today after she left us. it's the first time when i'm there and she's not around. it feels so weird when i opened the door to her house.

the table that is always filled with yummy foods is now empty. yes things are never going to be the same again. i am so used to her presence in the house that it feels weird without her by my side.

it came so sudden that when it happened i dont even know what to do. i even tried my best to delay myself from attending her funeral on the first day. unfilial granddaughter. (i'm sorry grandma dearest. i simply cant accept the fact that you are gone.)

i sat in the kitchen and looked around (it's her territory!) .. trying my best to remember every single details that i see. and i thought i saw her standing there.. smiling at me..

tears started flowing when it finally hit me that she is gone forever. it seems only yesterday when we were still joking and talking to her in the kitchen. but now she's gone to a faraway land.

grandma dearest,

are you adapting well over there? i really hope so. but not us because we are still trying to come to term with your sudden departure. but dont worry about us. we will be fine. :) well i'm sure you are now having a happy reunion with grandpa dearest, third aunt and fourth aunt. :P

things are going to be different from now onwards but dont worry. we will cope and go through it all.

till we meet again grandma dearest.
i miss you so so sooo much.
there are lots of things that i have yet to tell/ do/ show you.
and you left me.

i pray that you are happy wherever you are now.

always in my heart,
ah girl.

grandma dearest

i was looking through those photos we took with grandma dearest on chinese new year and it bought tears to my eyes. we demanded to take pictures with her which she strongly refused as she complained about her untidy hair. (hahah! that's her!) but somehow we managed to convince her or rather i manage to force her (by holding down her arms!! hehehe) that she looks pretty and her hair is just fine. she was all smiley and cheerful when taking the pictures with us. but now she is lying in the hospital unconscious.. fighting for her life. i hate to say this but i dont like the idea of spending my next cny without her.. because it's never going to be the same.

grandma dearest with her other grandchildren

grandma dearest with part of her daughters


everyone hate to see her leave but will it bring more suffering to her if she continues in this way? i dont know. but one thing for sure.. we are not ready to lose her yet.

how i wish it's all nothing but a bad bad dream...

i haven't been a very filial granddaughter to her yet. lesser trips were made to her house as we grew older. from a weekly visit i ended up visiting her once a month and sometimes once a few months..

and yes i regret not spending more time with her. and yet again.. sometimes you need to lose before you know how to cherish. (fret not i havent lose her yet! she will be fine) i remember her always asking me to eat whenever i visit her. always making it a point to cook my favourite cabbage (that's my favourite dish cooked by her and i will do anything to eat it again.) whenever i'm there. that's her.. always worried about us.. remembering our likes and dislikes... she is an angel to us all. :)

grandma dearest,

doctor told us that you might not make it past today. but you did it and manage to prove him wrong!! (although we almost lost you.. but you did it in the end with your determination! :)well done!!) so miracles do happen after all. and being the stubborn you.. i'm sure it will happen to you tooo.

i know you are tired... and i will let you rest a little bit more.. but you must remember and promise to wake up when it's time too. because we are all waiting for you. your children, grandchildren and great grandchildren... everyone of us.

with love,
your dearest granddaughter. :)

:)

taken on CNY 2010 with grandma dearest.


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