everything in life has an end.

yes, im closing another chapter of my life... :)

after 3 years of juggling both work and studies.. i am proud to announce that i finally completed my degree course. just attended my last lesson for the whole course.. boy im definitely going to miss those hectic days of mine.. weekend spent rushing for assignments, rushing off to school after work and burning midnight oil to prepare for exams.. and always asking the others before class "eh what to eat later arh?" going to miss our dinner gossips!!

(the place where we met, have fun and work hard together.. the place where all of us are working towards to acheive the same goal... the place where future counsellors/ social workers are born...)

i still remember how i felt on the day when i signed up for this course. very very HAPPY. why? i finally found the way to fulfill my goal in life. and because i also know that i am one step closer to my dream...

i'm a ITE graduate and all my buddies are either in poly or jc. but im the only poor soul that got into ITE. so imagine my sadnesss.. :P got to admit i feel kind of lost when i decided to join ITE. and it became worst after i graduate from ITE and nobody wants to employ me.. rejections by employers because of my age, qualification and lack of experiences... that's the society that we are living in. but i'm glad that someone decided to try me out and happy to say that my luck change from there onwards! hehe. all thanks to her! :)

and imagine my happiness when dad told me about this school that specialise in counselling.. signed up for it immediately and since then i'm hooked to it! (phew still cannot believe that i got my degree already..) and now 3 years everything has ended!! fast??

but if you asked me now.. did i regret joining ITE and waste my time there? my answer is no. because i went through the hard way in my studies..and it did changed me and i became more determined to get my degree. i try not to regret any decisions made as i believe that everything in life happened for a reason and there is a meaning and lesson attached to it. i lost some but i gain even more. i gain lots of experiences, learnt a great deal of things and met lots of wonderful people that help me along on my journey. all these are priceless. :)

i got to know this crazy funny twin sister! jeannie baby! someone who is able to crap with me and stand all my nonsenses. and our friendship grow stronger and stronger in the last 2 years.. what am i going to do without her in school? helping me with my assignments and always being so patient and nice.. entertaining me with all her jokes! ahh! im definitely going to miss hanging out with her...


i'm glad that for our last semester there isn't any exams and just purely based on assignments (as usual essays and reports). thus it's not too taxing.. and finally for once.. i managed to complete my assignments earlier! didnt really rush too hard for it. like wtf. i only managed to change until the last semester!! fine fine fine.. but at least i did change right? and it feels damn good when you didnt have to stay up all night trying to crap 2500 words within one day! hah! im definitely going to miss those crazy days..


*somehow it still feels like a dream to me that i'm a graduate now. i fcuking got my degree already!! yes i'm not dreaming... well done and great job ziqi!! you rocks! :)*

alright time to think of what i want to do for the next chapter of my life...

my first t shirt design

overdue reflection...

it was hard to kick start this planning as we haven't confirm the theme that we want to go for. beside that we have difficulties getting people to help us to come up with the design. approach a few nice people but what they came up with were not really suitable. after going one big round of asking friends, volunteers to help us design the logo for our 11th anniversary, we ended up using the design which i drew.... anyway thanks to the two design below i came up with something similar.. although not fantastic but at least boss agreed to it..




initially i refused to draw it myself as i the feeling when you draw until damn serious or what and they reject your design.. okay who likes rejection?? i hate it when you spend a lot time and effort to think and come up with something but in the end it got rejected.. ok lah i know all these are part of life experiences and i need to learn from it.. but im a lazy person unless im really in the mood to draw or do something.. i will do it nicely for you if not.. HAHAH. i need to change my character...

but anyhow.. in the end until the very last resort.. out of no choice.. i decided to draw it myself.. and thank god BOSS AGREED TO USE MY DESIGN!!! although he did rejected my first 2 proposal...

i got this inspiration from melvyn's design. anyway the 3 person are holding and supporting one and other. can you tell from the picture? (and boss find this too childish!)

try the design out with a heart shape... (still childish...)

replace the 3 figures with a hand holding together (so i modify abit and came up with this.. as we walk hand in hand together.... while drawing this, it reminds me of those days when im struggling to complete my portfolio.)

and TADAH!! got it printed out on the T SHIRTS!!! (:

so there goes my first ever t shirt that i designed! glad that i manage to churn something out at the last min... and once again it's proven that my brain only works at the very last min! HAHAHA

after 3 years of suffering...

i'm graduating this thursday!!!
happy happy HAPPY!!
and now finishing up my last assignment and i will be FREEEE woooo
i cant wait..
going to take a break for a while
and then think about what i want to do in 2010.

i'm thinking if i should continue my studies and get my master? feel like BUT im tired of the process of rushing for deadlines and rushing to school after work. tsk tsk tsk..

ahhh. worry about that later! finish up my last assignment first! one more question to goo!!

tsk tsk tsk.. parents..

i had one group of primary 4 kids coming over to do volunteer work earlier.. as they are really young and it's their first time volunteering, the kids were unsure what to do. and some of them shared that they are actually afraid of my client. okay this is normal.. anyway i am really proud of them. they did a great job interacting and having fun with my clients. after the session, while having a debriefing session, all of them wants to come back and volunteer again. so i told them to seek their parents consent first and ask them to bring them here the next time.

and one student commented that

"miss chloe, my mother will not bring me here one. because she thinks that they are crazy people."

alright well done mother! for sharing the WRONG information to a child. call yourself a mother.. tsk tsk tsk.. they are mentally SLOWER and not mentally CRAZY! it's a very BIG differences okay. even though they are special but they are also humans like us with feelings and they do need people to love and care for them just like everyone of us.

how are we going to include them in our society if people are not being educate correctly about them? and it really pissed me off to see them spreading the wrong information about them. a lot of time when people heard that we are a intellectually disabled home, they started to panic and withdraw. i totally understand how it feels.. it's normal to feel afraid.. i'm afraid too when i first join them. but you should GIVE THEM A CHANCE to work with you first instead of rejecting them directly just because they are intellectually disabled. if you are not willing to give it a try and work with them then how are you going to accept them and understand them better?

we really want to include them in our community and let them live together with us. it is neither their fault nor their parents' fault that they are born differently from us. so why should we ostracize them?

everyone deserves a second chance. and yes they too deserve a chance to live together with us in the community. so please please please.. don't label them.. criticise them.

instead accept, respect and include them.

okay just feel like ranting.......

say hello to BOBBY!

he is bobby. so what is so special about him? well basically he is the FIRST dog that i ever kiss! haha and beside that.. he is the first dog that i'm not afraid of. first that i dare to carry.. okay yes. i'm scare of dogs! blame it on a bad experience when i was just a little girl. i fucking got chase by a dog.. well maybe it's because we were really mischievous at that time so the owner decided to take revenge on us by letting his dog chase us and the innocent me was too young to know how to react! so.. you know.. haha.. those days... and dogs are always so aggressive when i see them. especially pauline's dog. always hump my leg super horny!

but bobby is really different. he is a sweeet little darling. he dont bark that often, he dont bite, and he is really cute. always wanting you to touch him.. sweeet right! haha

and good news is im learning how to love them now and less afraid of them.. im still trying yes.. give me sometime and i will succeed! YES!

ahh!

shit. think i kanna food poisoning or what. been visiting the toilet and LS-ing for the past 2 days. quite a few times i woke up in the middle of the night because of tummy ache and got to rush to the toilet. damn. very disruptive you know. basically i shit out everything that i ate. anyway if you look it from another side.. it's a good detox session isn't it? maybe after this i might get to lose 100000000kg? i hope so.. hahahah.

so wtf did i ate?

okay admit im here to show off! HAHAHA

was very very shock when i checked my result. i got 51/60!! hahahaha! pleasant surprise for last semester! i think it's the first time that i score that high.. im the kind that pass is good enough for me. so imagine my shockNESS when i checked my result that day! wooooooo

thank you!!! really make my day lah!

yes chris fong rocks lah!

又下雨了。
我的心也跟着它一起下。

HAHAHAHA

me: im going to junction 8 anybody want anything??
account: YES!!!
me: but i'm not going to buy for you.. NO NO!! LA LA LA LA!!

im not evil. really not evil but very nice...

oldies but goodies.